Quit

真的是沒事不會找博客。

I've been chatting with a new friend: fish tail. He's really talkative. No matter what I do, he kept the conversation going. Idk, but this guys has 100% weirdness.

He says, a short life would only last for awhile. It makes sense, of course. But it actually sounds better in Chinese.

一輩子不長啊 所以叫 一陣子。

Ive been using it to convince myself. It's Ok. It's ok to have shitty things happening, screwing up feelings and stuff. Because it'll only last for awhile, then we all die.

If you're sad, it'll only be awhile. Even if you're sad for your whole life, it's also just awhile.

There's no point in life. We're born in this shitty world, make more mess, then produce more shitty people and die. Like parasites.

And if you're sad, you're just a sad person that wouldn't matter to anyone at all, because you're just one person that will be gone years later.

So don't be sad. Don't think of shitty people that make you sad. Don't even think about them. Fuck everyone.

Badminton makes me happy, so I should go for it doesn't matter with who. Karaoke makes me happy, it's just twenty ringgit. It's ok to have some stress relieving moments doesn't matter who doesn't like it. I like myself with piercings, so no one should affect me.

I should let go of the things that stop me from doing the stuff that I like. If caring for someone makes you feel sad, then just delete that person from your life. If that person makes you feel sad thinking bout it, then really, delete everything that makes you think abt him.

Quitting isn't that hard. Right?

No rants

Okay fine. Today everything went so much better than before. Bio went terrible as usual. I brought lab coat and nothing else. Weird, cuz I still could concentrate realllly well.

After that we went to the caf and did some math. I made TJ ran one round downstairs to get the key. Heh sorry. Turned out the keys were with yam. Eh I have a new name for TJ. Ginger. :3 it's related to his full name. Anyways. Ughh stomata and shell kept shipping us. This is shit.

The election went as expected: Voon gets the president because people don't really know him. Pua gets the vice because he's just so nice. Actually, I don't know why. And me, I got the secretary. As usual. Paper<3 gets the treasurer. I like her actually, just cuz her writing is nice. I was actually really pissed when Voon gets the job. But really. I already expected this result.

The thing is, I'm not thaaaaat against him anymore. Why? After the meeting, we had a small meeting, a small committee meeting. So we gathered in front. Yam precisely told us our jobs, and told Voon especially, not to interfere our jobs. I'm fucking thankful for yam. He's trying to make me less that shitty. Well I appreciate his effort.

But I'm more okay with it because, during the committee meeting, they actually talked bout the future work. Now that I know, Pua is a tennis player. No wonder he's so good. And he said he has organized many tournaments. Definitely very experienced. Yup we didn't pick the wrong guy. He's cute. Heh fuck. Then Voon. He came up with some stuff he did before, which is sponsorship. Wow he's actually experienced in publicity. Just briefly talking bout these made me excited for the coming events. I'm gonna be part of the team involved in making these successful, of course I'm gonna participate and win something back.

All the committees are actually... we have our own pros and cons. I'm a fucking fierce secretary. I hope they don't mind, but the part I can do best would be for the system of the club. The boys can focus on the events where they're good at, and I can make the system flow great. One of the only few problems were club meeting over crowded. For that I came up with a suggestion, the club would only be open to register in a short fixed period. Then that's it. It's actually how the librarians and prefects work back then. Actually that was for my convenience too. Imagine you have to type in new forms any time of the year. It's stupid. It's so troublesome. Make my job easier, man. They accepted the suggestion.

Another was sacking. Used the librarian way too. I suggested they get kicked if they're absent for three times consecutively after the first warning. Hmph it's so soft compared to the librarians. They accepted it too. Wow seems like I'm focusing much on kicking people out. Who cares! I want those courts. :3

However. Conclusion, we actually are a great team. We're all good. Ginger, he'd be the head coach. Had I mentioned, he's the best player in the club? Then,,, Axe would be the cute photographer. Still, he's cute. We have a team with loads of shits and weaknesses. But I guess now it's going better, because we've created a committee chat group to discuss. It seems so much more professional because Voon let us help him get his English checked.

I can't believe Yam thinks my English is quite good. Is it??? Serious shit? Voon told me he passed his Ielts. Means if I take that test I'd pass too. HAAHHA not sorry, cuz you suck. I still hate your shitty no-sportsmanship-attitude, but you have your part. Yeah please prove me wrong. 

Voon rant.

Fuck. This guy really is position minded too. Look, asshole. If you're not capable, don't force it. So fucking done with you.

I'm harsh but too straightforward I'm starting to hate myself. Why am I so honest with you? Did I think you could become a better person? Boys will be boys. Arrogant piece of shit will be the same piece of shit. Yh don't expect him to become a good person. 

I'm going to imagine his future interview and laugh. It's not my business, but it sure is funny to imagine. President, this guy? Really? Lmaao.

He needs to know the reason why I treat him like shit. Now that he knows, I'm feeling much better. The piece of shit needs to know he's a piece of shit. The piece of shit needs to know why he's being treated like a piece of shit. There's no turning back. I actually told him I really hate to so fucking much in his face.

Man, how would that felt? It must be not so good, since I used to be nice. Well, not sorry. I'm never polite to troublemakers. Especially this arrogant shit.

This is so fucked up. Seriously what's wrong with this world? He'd get picked because people like him. Only I hate him. He'd think I want his position but tbh the highest I'd aim would be vice. I criticized badly bout his English, that doesn't make mine good. A president should know how to speak well and be influential. I'm not the type that could be.

Well, fuck everything. Let's hope they pick someone else for secretary. Let's hope I get to quit unintentionally so I could ignore this arrogant guy forever.

One thing I can't understand is, why this guy won't even treat me harsher even after how I've treated him? Is he dumb or what omfg.

Club work

I can't believe how cooperative the members are I'm going to love them. Looking at how I work, what I thought when I receive cases, I'm not gonna do whatever they did that annoyed me.

In the future, definitely, if there's a form, make sure you fill it up so the superior has a better first impression bout you. If you're  requesting for a job but don't bother to fill up the simple columns, how are they gonna trust that you could finish your damn job? You're just out. Out before you even get the interview.

I told Voon, it's ok that they leave it blank, at least we get to know what kind of people they are, thanks to a simple form. But I guess I'm taking part of it back. Some of them, gained more better impression when I went for information hunt one by one. Mat was one. He actually apologized. In among so many, just one felt sorry. Wow, surprised. And another guy who ignored me at first, then typed the full information formally after my first reminder. Very wow. Thanks, cooperative members. Really.

Easter was one. Heh. I know where she lives now >:) seems nearby. Daamn I really could ask her out for badminton. This is too awesome.

Club rant.

I'm still gonna rant.
I have a plan since the day I was temporarily elected. It's a new club, so I'm bringing the librarian system in. Used to think the librarian system was slightly fucked up, but now I see this club, I realized how awesome the librarian system was. Sadly, I was only the secretary. I only could bring up secretary ideas, but not posts. So I created a shared file. They agreed with whatever I planned.

I searched my old folders, I actually deleted 90% of all these files, but fortunately some of them were successfully recovered. I found my incomplete setiausaha folder. Inside includes info, name lists, meeting minutes, reports, approval letters and warning letters, perfect to refer.

It kinda gave me a head start. So since the club takes application forms from each members, I started with typing in the information. It was easier for the librarians since there's just form 1 to 5. For badminton, I decided to use their courses to categorize them. Well, problems are these members won't fill them up.

It was midnight, I texted those people with empty courses, and most of them replied, but I was tired, so it's end of shift. I asked voon a favor: stop accepting incomplete forms, and inform the rest of them from the notice.

In college, I've sorted the hard copies accordingly and informed him. It seems like English problems killed my patience. He couldn't understand me. I'm trying to tell him. The four of us might be receiving application forms. So please tell them not to accept incomplete forms because they've caused me so much inconvenience.

Explaining that to him makes me want to run into a wall. That was okay, because he called and spoke to me. I swear I wanna put a bullet in his head.

Guess what I saw after class ends. He asked the members' personal information in the group. Like wtf. Is that what I said? DEAR DEAR PRESIDENT. Would you stop putting your nose into everything? What are they gonna think, a president asking private informations in public. What are they gonna think when I asked their information then he asks again for the same thing!? Obviously yeah, there's an error in the system, which is our dear president wants to be everything. Why don't you make yourself useful and just shut up!?

Chill yh. Chill. I feel like quitting but I don't want to. I feel like this job is making me 24hrs harsh to everyone. President, what do they do? They show up, inspire, and make the system flows perfect by viewing the bigger picture. Voon does the opposite! Minding others' business, doing others' job while I'm halfway on it. Wtf. Like seriously wtf. What kind of president is this? Fucking tell me.

Honestly I don't think the election can change anything. If I don't tell, no one knows. No one knows bout the inside shits here. Trust me, no one cares bout the club. It's not their business. They just wanna play.

The only two ways:
Make him realize that he's not fit for the job.
I'll be his personal critic and make him so done from me.

Badminton tight

Today morning we had badminton again. My badminton days are getting tight, but I love it. It's like... Last weds up to now I had badminton like.... four times. Too great.

I finally beat a guy I've always wanted to beat since... two years ago. That satisfaction. It's too good. Plus I'm off form, how well could I play if I'm not in this shitty state?

Badminton is life. I'm afraid I'll look forward to badminton dates so so badly I couldn't live anymore lmao.

Friday is the official meeting that yam would attend. I'm actually... Worried. They know I don't like being a secretary. Yam knows I dislike voon being the president. Well, I might either get back the secretary, or.... Nothing at all.

Actually, what do I want? I'm confused. Ugh. How can a person be president if you're worried that you'd lose one piece of paper? What could you do?? Seems like nothing at all. Ugh.

I don't see anything good in you. You don't have sports ethics. You're simple minded, clumsy and freaking dumb. If you didn't tell, I wouldn't even notice that you represented a state. Well good for you that the club already thinks you're the boss. And when the vote is on, it might still be you.

There's nothing we can do. I'm gonna wait until your ass retires, and then the fair game would be on. We need a capable leader. But I have no idea how's yam gonna fix it. It seems unfixable.

Badminton Easter

Today was supposed to be an awesome day, despite my huge mistake that made me skipped chem class. I studied anyway, time not wasted. I was guilty but it didn't last long. To make sure I can take care of my rackets, I studied in the student center. It was kinda noisy, Tj and Jr came at different times, so I was accompanied. They're just so nice. Lucky to know jr. He told me bout the event today, so yepp I'm like an outsider crashing in their small meeting. The boss was (I thought) the most good looking guy in the college lmao.

Guilt guilt guilt, guilty skipping class.. Tj solved my problem by helping me keep my racket in his car. So I could walk around without burden yaaay. Awesome.

There was a huge huge gap. I did the secretary job as planned, then studied at the library. Tbh I couldn't have done anything or went anywhere if I have to take the racket with me all the time. *Thankful*

Club started. So fucking awesome. I was with my classmates, and I realized there's five of them. They actually don't need me there. Next week would be five, too, I can play with the boys and they'd be fine. The best thing about today was I found a girl. A girl with my level.

I'll call her Easter. Easter egg! Kinda food too eh? She's actually damn good. Why must my badminton buddies be that tall? Why, pineapple, why, Easter? Why are you guys so tall! Easter has two classmates there too. I realized I've seen them before cuz the one that shines gave me a deep impression. So this guy who's probably a pro debator is Jam, and another guy, Green. Sorry I give terrible nicknames. I have no choice. It's for your privacy.

Voon asked Jam and I to play against Easter and Green. Wooh. I can't believe Jam couldn't play. I also can't believe Easter was so much better than Green. It's like the other way round this time. The girls play the main roles. Wooo cheers to the ladiess. I like her. Damn. And she's a senior who's younger than me. Fuuccck. Damn.

Voon actually made us girls play against two guys. Woah woah. We could beat them. But we lost by 21-19. Terrible form. I actually told voon and tj that I couldn't run today. They thought I was giving excuses. Blah. But the other match when sky blue and I played against Sun and Axe, we won by 21-11, which I expected us to beat them under ten. It was so awesome. When they hit too high and I was quite readied, so I get to tap them sharply. Fucking satisfying! Not just one, damn! It was a few shots, and I actually.... Hit the boys. Sorry. I was too excited. And those shots I thought I'd miss because I couldn't reach,,,, I actually reached them! It's gold. Fuck my life, the best mix I've played. Sky blue was good. Sorry for complaining previously, on that day you really didn't see me as a badminton player, and now you actually requested me to partner you??? Mind blooown. Boys are weird. Really weird. But that game was awesome.

The other best things, I get to know a cute photographer. It's Axe. He has braces, and not that tall. That's probably what made him cute. Wait no, it's his friendly attitude made him cute. And the braces!

Nana wanted to play with me then. She was actually quite good. I rate her, maybe the third best female player there. It's awesome. She could take most of the shots, but just not really beautifully. Ah she's so cute. Have I mentioned? 

:3

I really love badminton. Everything about badminton makes me smile. I think bout wood all the time. Bout what he'd say if he meets Easter. Gah it was so nice. I can invite Easter out for badminton too, the next time pineapple comes back. She's like the only one who understands my badminton frustration. We have the same experiences in MSSD: GETTING KICKED BADLY BY CHS PLAYERS. *cries* She has been there too, knocked out by the state players. Awesome finally someone could relate me. Gahhh. But she makes me feel bad. I'm older than her but an intake slower than her. This is so terrible.

She's gonna be a good friend. :3 damnnnn badminton was so awesome I couldn't get enough of it.

Next week hell would end. It's time for footwork, very very hardworking footwork. Fml. I should avoid seeing German charlie for awhile. It means goodbye tetris hahahah omg what's wrong with me.

I actually had a huge fight with my mom at night. But I guess before I broke my fist, I know well, how to end it, and it succeeded. I'm pretty lucky. I decided to skip dinner but grandma was determined to make me eat. Aaah. Damn.

Overall today was really really fucking awesome. The last match we played was when I was bored, I asked Axe to stroke with me. His lobs were really good! Did not expected that. Then two boys in full black shirt asked for a match. Axe wasn't really good at defenses. Gosh there was one shot I'm satisfied to death. I served nice and low, he returned slightly too high. I was at the front, so I actually smashed it cross court, sharply. I wish I could do that more, it's like fuuuu.. the people clapped. That glorious moment lmao. I have to laugh to death but we were too serious. But we lost by 21-15, the blacks were good. :3

%&*#?@?=;@?@ can I just time travel to next Monday??? Nono, next Saturday! Wait. Heh. :3 I can't wait. Badminton is life. My addiction is getting stronger because of the club, fml. Fml. Fml.

Aaah.