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Not a good day, not a bad day. It started badly because I had this stupid test that I HAVE TO pass. But how did I do? I fucking don't know. It was kinda hard, but.... Forty percent was objective questions, I need forty percent to pass. Should be okay, right? I sat at the almost last. Very behind. There's a bunch of boys who came late that sat there too. They fucking cheated. zzzzz. Whatever, whatever. It's over anyway. Fuck everything.

That when the day gets better. I was so fucking tired, so I took a nap before chem. Fucking awesome. Then the girls were chit chatting. So I sticked my nose in. Haha I can't believe what first impression I gave them. The first time they get to take a good look at me was at the presentation. Obviously, I dressed fucking well. And they said I was fucking pretty HAHAHA I'm gonna laugh to death. So they thought I was the good girl who talks less. Lmao. But turned out I'm a messy blur as fuck psycho. Chem was blur. I understood a bit, still dying.

Violin class was boom awesome. I drove super fast. Duh it was highway. I think I should start from the beginning again. I'm learning vibrato. We all see those cool people doing it during performances, they hold a note long, and there's like resonance. Fucking cool. Yeah. It's pretty easy if you make it slow mo. It's just A, A flat, A, A flat. The hard thing is, you need to play it with metronome, you set a time, like three minutes, then slowly increase the speed.

Last week, I couldn't last two minutes because I held it slight wrongly. But when I got it right, it's like I have unlimited stamina. You fucking increase the speed and I can do it without practicing. And that's why, violin teacher complains a lot. He said if I started class at three years old, I'm gonna be a fucking pro so long ago. And if I do practice, I'm gonna be a fucking pro too in no time. But the thing is, I don't have time, right?

Feeling too good, off to badminton. Again, forty minutes late. Fucking pissed. I thought I'd play so badly, but when Tj partnered me and we fought against pua and the sky blue shirt who looked down on me, surprisingly we won. I didn't suck that bad at all. I fucking tapped it dead once. It's like the best shot in few months.

Shell came. We stroked then Voon made us played mix doubles. It's a wrong decision. Shell couldn't play mix yet. She might lose even if she played against girls. No. And as expected she got so fucking stressed, like how I always were. So after it ended, we went to the back to revise footwork.

I can't believe I'm training her. I can't even play well enough and I'm training a newbie. Fuck. How  can I? Gah. Pua came to join us. Lmao. He's cute. He tried out the steps that I taught shell. He suggested I train all the girls. Definitely no. People wouldn't want to listen to me. And I'm not here to train people, I'm training shell cuz she'd be my partner. But walao it's true that if the girls don't get basics, they'd play wrongly and train wrongly. I can't believe he thought I'm 20. Do I look so old?
"You have a mature face." Lmao

Today's awesome. But I didn't play enough, saaaad. Ugh. Ugh. Next week onwards would be fucking awesome. :3

Looking forward like craaazy.