This is the first time (I think) I get to voice my rant properly, but not so properly. Our adviser. Erm sorry if by any chance you read this, I'm very used to giving nicknames to everyone I know here so... Yeah. Our adviser, Yam. Food again heh. I have a feeling we're gonna be friends. Well he said he didn't mind reading my blog even after I informed about the vulgar words. And I was too lazy to translate them to soft words. So... heh all that anger. Sorry uh. But I felt so much better.
Caring about something can destroy you. It's my weak spot.
Caring about the group of fake friends which ended up betraying you, made you take so much more time to trust new people in life.
Caring about the future of the librarian board made me have the urge to start organizing whatever the seniors did not do well, including changing system, adding rules.
Caring about the future secretarial job made me stressed out bout how I couldn't train my assistant well during that time.
Caring about a person too much ruins my life and made me destroy myself by loving him more than myself, and have stupid breakdowns randomly.
It's similar to a responsibility but not exactly that. Sometimes, it's not that they don't wanna be responsible. They just did not think that far. Maybe I over think too much. Maybe I care too much. I can do my part as a girl player which tries my best to win for my college. I can just do that part well and ignore all the politics inside. But then I admit, I am position minded. Not too much but still actually not that little. HAaaaaaaaaiz I wish I could get rid of that.
I want to do big things. I want to show the world, people like me, even if I'm short, messy, emotionally fucking unstable, and fierce... But I can do things. I want them to take their words back. Take their arrogant shitty face back. I want the feeling that people look up on me. It's pretty hard. Stupid goal that will never come true.
If boys could just stop being so arrogant. If. If only.
Caring about something can destroy you. It's my weak spot.
Caring about the group of fake friends which ended up betraying you, made you take so much more time to trust new people in life.
Caring about the future of the librarian board made me have the urge to start organizing whatever the seniors did not do well, including changing system, adding rules.
Caring about the future secretarial job made me stressed out bout how I couldn't train my assistant well during that time.
Caring about a person too much ruins my life and made me destroy myself by loving him more than myself, and have stupid breakdowns randomly.
It's similar to a responsibility but not exactly that. Sometimes, it's not that they don't wanna be responsible. They just did not think that far. Maybe I over think too much. Maybe I care too much. I can do my part as a girl player which tries my best to win for my college. I can just do that part well and ignore all the politics inside. But then I admit, I am position minded. Not too much but still actually not that little. HAaaaaaaaaiz I wish I could get rid of that.
I want to do big things. I want to show the world, people like me, even if I'm short, messy, emotionally fucking unstable, and fierce... But I can do things. I want them to take their words back. Take their arrogant shitty face back. I want the feeling that people look up on me. It's pretty hard. Stupid goal that will never come true.
If boys could just stop being so arrogant. If. If only.
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