Ginger, know why I'm suddenly not nice anymore?
Yeah it has something to do with wood. But Guess what, it's my decision to stay away from males like you. You killed the snapstreak once, and I'm gonna kill it too. After that, there won't be anymore snapstreaks. We gonna be just normal 'besties' and maybe, better, nothing at all. Boys that act nice has their intentions. Even if they don't, they'll just be temporary. For the sake of you, and I, I'll stay away from you. Thank you for anything kind you've done to me. Really, thank you. Next time if we bump into each other in the library, I'd leave right away. I'm just that mean.
Yes yes I do, want to improve. I want to improve so so badly I can actually ignore the bad ankle, and run. I can ignore everything, and just train as usual. I do agree boys can help me to improve, you can help me improve. But if I'm gonna use you, I'm a fucking bitch. I might be, but I'm not thaaat kind of bitch. It's no different from those that want your card, cash, condo, car. If you agree to let me join, I'll have my own way to get to that location. I'll pay for the court and shuttlecocks I've used. I'll do my part, and you do yours. I don't owe you, you don't owe me. But since it's not possible, that fuck that shit.
I have ways. If I really can't improve without help from anyone, I'd get myself to another training center. I'll find a new coach. You're not the only one that can help me. I can stroke with so many boys, I don't need the best in the club. People that I hate the most are the people who let go promises like no one else's business. And you, sir, has been added to that list, voluntarily.
I've been sad, losing someone who's not even mine since a year ago. It's stupid as fuck. So fucking dumb I can't describe it. I'm so mad at myself I want to just pierce my ears as I wish, I want to wear nicer clothes just to please myself and the fucking mirror. I want to eat junk food just to pleasure my fucking taste buds without your business. I want to go to karaoke fucking alone just to sing until I cry. I want to spend time with my classmates, watching movies, ice skating, Whatever you hate! I want to do these things for myself just for myself, and you don't matter at all. Because you don't give any shit anyway. I want to do the things I want to do, and to not care about how you'd think.
Have you seen bitches putting snaps on their story, just to know if one particular person has slept?
Have you seen bitches scrolling through recent posts only searching for that one name?
It has never surprised me, being disappointed.
It's like being happy is not possible anymore cuz you don't let yourself to.
Bit by bit, I'm removing you from my life. I've deleted seventy photos and videos, all from our folder. Bit by bit, I removed your custom notifications, your settings I've put in fb, so you'd never appear in my notifications anymore. After awhile, your name would be gone from my life, as I'd rename you something that I'd never tap in to take a look. I'd forget your number, I'd forget that I've always missed you. One guy made me go crazy. Well that's enough.
If anything else's gonna make me go crazy, that'd be badminton. I've always admired people who play badminton well. It's not gonna change. I'll always admire their skills, and look up on them.
Guess what, besides Easter, I've found another girl who could play. A fucking state player from Ipoh! Ps I know, I'm a stalker. But I'm a secretary too, so I have the rights to take peeks at their information. Bleh don't mind me.
Honestly I think Easter beats me. I'm not the best in the college. I'm still as usual, very average. Whenever I stroke half court with Easter, she hits hard, so hard I'm always not in good state hitting back. But I think she's very predictable. Some tricking shots could exhaust her or make her shots unstable. And that's the chance I kill. Not sure how we'd both do in a real single match, but... she's not thaaat good in mix doubles. And the new girl I've found? Shes an art student, never met her in person yet, but I found her fb. A wow tomboy. So excited to get to play with her. When would that be? Awh please.
:3 Only badminton can excite me now. Gah let me play.
Yeah it has something to do with wood. But Guess what, it's my decision to stay away from males like you. You killed the snapstreak once, and I'm gonna kill it too. After that, there won't be anymore snapstreaks. We gonna be just normal 'besties' and maybe, better, nothing at all. Boys that act nice has their intentions. Even if they don't, they'll just be temporary. For the sake of you, and I, I'll stay away from you. Thank you for anything kind you've done to me. Really, thank you. Next time if we bump into each other in the library, I'd leave right away. I'm just that mean.
Yes yes I do, want to improve. I want to improve so so badly I can actually ignore the bad ankle, and run. I can ignore everything, and just train as usual. I do agree boys can help me to improve, you can help me improve. But if I'm gonna use you, I'm a fucking bitch. I might be, but I'm not thaaat kind of bitch. It's no different from those that want your card, cash, condo, car. If you agree to let me join, I'll have my own way to get to that location. I'll pay for the court and shuttlecocks I've used. I'll do my part, and you do yours. I don't owe you, you don't owe me. But since it's not possible, that fuck that shit.
I have ways. If I really can't improve without help from anyone, I'd get myself to another training center. I'll find a new coach. You're not the only one that can help me. I can stroke with so many boys, I don't need the best in the club. People that I hate the most are the people who let go promises like no one else's business. And you, sir, has been added to that list, voluntarily.
I've been sad, losing someone who's not even mine since a year ago. It's stupid as fuck. So fucking dumb I can't describe it. I'm so mad at myself I want to just pierce my ears as I wish, I want to wear nicer clothes just to please myself and the fucking mirror. I want to eat junk food just to pleasure my fucking taste buds without your business. I want to go to karaoke fucking alone just to sing until I cry. I want to spend time with my classmates, watching movies, ice skating, Whatever you hate! I want to do these things for myself just for myself, and you don't matter at all. Because you don't give any shit anyway. I want to do the things I want to do, and to not care about how you'd think.
Have you seen bitches putting snaps on their story, just to know if one particular person has slept?
Have you seen bitches scrolling through recent posts only searching for that one name?
It has never surprised me, being disappointed.
It's like being happy is not possible anymore cuz you don't let yourself to.
Bit by bit, I'm removing you from my life. I've deleted seventy photos and videos, all from our folder. Bit by bit, I removed your custom notifications, your settings I've put in fb, so you'd never appear in my notifications anymore. After awhile, your name would be gone from my life, as I'd rename you something that I'd never tap in to take a look. I'd forget your number, I'd forget that I've always missed you. One guy made me go crazy. Well that's enough.
If anything else's gonna make me go crazy, that'd be badminton. I've always admired people who play badminton well. It's not gonna change. I'll always admire their skills, and look up on them.
Guess what, besides Easter, I've found another girl who could play. A fucking state player from Ipoh! Ps I know, I'm a stalker. But I'm a secretary too, so I have the rights to take peeks at their information. Bleh don't mind me.
Honestly I think Easter beats me. I'm not the best in the college. I'm still as usual, very average. Whenever I stroke half court with Easter, she hits hard, so hard I'm always not in good state hitting back. But I think she's very predictable. Some tricking shots could exhaust her or make her shots unstable. And that's the chance I kill. Not sure how we'd both do in a real single match, but... she's not thaaat good in mix doubles. And the new girl I've found? Shes an art student, never met her in person yet, but I found her fb. A wow tomboy. So excited to get to play with her. When would that be? Awh please.
:3 Only badminton can excite me now. Gah let me play.
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