I'm like her

Imagine everytime I scold my sister about her attitude, I'm just scolding myself. Because, she's me. We're the same.

I feel really really bad, actually.

She had a performance yesterday. It's like a big thing... I duno why. There were so so many problems. Choosing a suitable piece... Commenting on the performance... then she losing things as usual...

She gets really unhappy when she receives... Things she doesn't wanna listen.

Even I, she asked how did she do, and I didn't even dare to really comment. I said what she'd like to listen. Then she was okay.

Mom talked to me about it. I asked her, what should we do then? About her losing her wallet and not giving any shit..  she's gonna go overseas. What do we do?

Mom said, no choice.
Why is she like that?
Because we spoilt her, we care too much bout her feelings. So she couldn't accept criticism. But critics are what that makes her grow. Isn't it? She's pampered.

Like I am too. That's why wood left me. 

I didn't deserve that guy.
I deserve his current treatment.

He didn't want me to become a shitty spoilt kid. So he did what's best for me. I didn't appreciate that. I caused us both, having a hard time.

I thought he always wanted the best for me, physically but not emotionally. I thought he never cared bout my feelings, and always telling me what to do.

No. I was wrong. I chose to be that spoilt brat.

Before I become a good daughter, I should just leave him alone. Yeah for his sake. And everything.

Being with me must be hard.
I'm very very truly sorry for that.