Wood

A few pretty satisfying stuff happened yesterday. Being with wood is full of ups and downs. Even after we've broke up, as long as he makes an effort to appear in my life, it would be rollercoaster. I like to think that he uses badminton with the dj team as an excuse to text me a bit. Still feeling crappy, yesterday we had badminton. I got there early, so I was flipping my bio notes. He was freaking adorable as he snatched it. His comment was gold.

You could sell this with at least 300 and above. I don't deny how precious the notes are. I mean hey. I spent so much time managing it, making everything easy understandable and informative. Thank you for that :D thennn he tested me about myasthenia gravis. You see, I have the answer in my head, I swear. I thought about drooping eyelids, and those other symptoms. It was like *I'm thinking about destroyed acetylcholine receptors, but I doubt myself too fucking bad I didn't dare to answer it* This is my fucking weakness. When can I be confident? Just fucking say it out yh. I'm not always wrong. I can be right, this is bio! Bloody heeellll.

I avoided posting stuff about my new training because I didn't tell him yet. It's unfair if I were to tell random bloggers before telling him. I guess I made an awesome choice by telling him. His reaction, was asking me to join him. I stared at him until he was uncomfortable lmao.

Are you... Asking me to go with you???
Of course he denies. He's just too $&@($((.
<3 awesome.

So there was full of shits. It's like I found my new paradise and my number one priority asks me to go back. Think about the time we could be next to each other. Could I ever say no? I sincerely want to go both, but that's not possible.

I have a friend here. I kinda like this. I've talked to arrogant about it, he was soooo lmao. I mean heh I've never had this struggle before. It's like choosing in between green tea and tiramisu flavored cakes. I can't even make a choice. Both are gold. Just ugh. The best thing is both green tea and tiramisu tried hard to make me pick them. Wow. I feel... Appreciated HAHHAHAA in my dreamsss.

I freaking love his tiny unobvious encouragement he gave after each shot, when we played against two strangers from neighbouring court. That's something I never got from him before. <3 he's slightly different, there. I thought I made a bad decision going for badminton in a shitty condition. But naaah it was the best choice.

So I talked bout it to arrogant. Damnnn it was a satisfying convo. I had a few things confirmed. Firstly, HE COMPLIMENTED MY ENGLISH HAHAHA OK it's just unusual to get tiny encouragements from these kind of arrogant psychos. I mean hey. I never spoke English to him. Not that I speak to anyone else :/ anyways he tried to convince me to stay. Haha I didn't tell him that nobody could possibly convince me to do anything except myself.

Secondly, I've had my sciences improving. Uhm duh. Actually I didn't need anyone to confirm that shit. But... His results dropped. Actually I don't understand. He's a fucking genius, why did it dropped. Can effort be more effective than talent? Or maybe everyone just changed.

I remember this guy didn't used to like physics as much as other sciences. But he's actually working harder for it. I remember I used to think science will never be my thing, but if I'm gonna think abt how hard these college level sciences are compared to highschool level, DAMN I've improved up to some stage I'd never imagine myself to be if it was the same me last year. Maybe things can be changed after all. Maybe there's no such thing as impossible after all.

I'm going to say no for once after that day. It wasn't because of you. I found out that I have more transport problems that I imagined. But you know me, I'm going to miss you like crazy still. We might not be in the same training, but hey think about it. We'd still be having training at the same moment. It's just.... You'd be far away like always. I hope it's okay for you. This coach over here has found my problem the first time he seen me stroke. And he's fixing it, instead of sighing, and saying that I'm extremely hopeless. If you look at how the girls there play, you'd believe me. I found a good coach. We can always go with the dj team when pineapple's back. I guess I didn't have a choice. I always thought, it seems like I've reached a level that I'm unable to improve. But this coach gave me hope. I mean hey no one's helping me to fix my terrible swings. Maybe I can do much better than this. Badminton is hobby. It's also something I'd like to be good at. :3

Anyways one more thing we had bio today. Maybe not my strongest after all. Ugh. Honestly I drove my half dead shell to college, it was terrible. Worst driving ever. Not that I've hit something.... But hey raising my arms took 90% of that energy. I thought I was definitely gonna die during bio. Thank god I finished the paper.
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_^$$;("(#('( life's good. Life's better when I decided to disappear from someone's notification, but he volunteerily appeared in mine. TWICE, YESTERDAY. God damnit it's the best goodnight. Some people like to say "I DON'T CARE". But when it comes to horoscopes, they look at the person's horoscope that they "don't care". That's already enough for me.