.

When the world gives you everything you wanted. You wanted an okay result, you wanted your ex to come back to you. But you no longer want that. You adapted to change, in order to make it tru that shitty time. You learnt to be alone, to party, to be happy just by being yourself.

You finally get all you wanted.
But that's not how, right?

We evolve, we don't reverse evolution. Survival of the fittest. You became fit, and you got thrown back to the old environment.

Let's just say, I forget all the shits that happened in the past.
Everyone has to learn to forgive and forget, in order to move on. What if I finally did it? And it didn't want me to.

I tried. I want to feel again. I allowed you to pick up my cold hands. There was nothing. It's not there anymore. I'm so sorry.

Idk what happened to me.

I can look at you, admire you the same, even more, whenever you motivate, whenever your passion shows. You're still that fucking attractive when you help people.

I thought, this is how I felt before I fell for you.

Is it possible to fall for someone for the very second time right after all hopes and dreams have died off? Is it possible to regain all that faith?

I don't even do anything when I had crush on people. I feel so empty, so empty that I don't feel like doing anything to fix that.

I taught myself, when shits happened, tell yourselves, "This is life." And move on. This is how, how we survive. Isn't it ?

I no longer feel anything when you tried to hold me, or hug me, there was nothing at all...

You know I'm done with love, when I started saying things like this when I was drunk.

Have you ever gotten so disappointed you give up to the point where it's just... Nothing anymore ?

I'm so sorry people. I'm not sad. I'm not unhappy or anything, it's been the second week of degree, and life has turned upside down. Everyone started throwing me questions, and I'm starting to say "meh" to everything. Is this a good thing or a bad thing?

I finally understand why, rivergrass once told me that it wasn't a good thing to not get affected by things.

Because you forget how to feel.