Miracles

When I tapped into stories and saw rivergrass's. I was stunned, and I replayed it, and replayed it. It was a short cute video.

Can a relationship that has been ended for six years revive? They did. It was so lovely. My heart full of butterflies. Please stay sweet. Gahhh too adorable 😍😭😭 I got hyped.

Wood says, look, miracles do happen.

Guess what the voice said?
If it's a happy ending, then it's not the end.

That's so cruel. I think if that voice inside voices out to happy couples, I would get punched. Hey I'm not cursing you all. I really do hope you lovely people stay sweet until the end.

He gave me a poker face.

I don't deny that it's a miracle. But it's a miracle that we worked for together.

Yeah. You're right.

I was breaking myself into pieces the past few years. Dumb as fuck. I could've just lived normally, not giving any shit to anyone. Carefreely. Then maybe life will still go normal and awesome. I didn't have to fill myself with these kinds of new "reality" thoughts and kill every single positive possibility.

I did thought of going back to him.

Ignore the voices, and give it one last try. Risk it, or I'll never know if it works, right?

I missed him. So much.
He's back to me, matured than ever.

There were so so many times I thought telling him things might piss him off. There were so many times I expected myself to get twenty stabs in the heart. But then, he bit my arm, lightly as ever. He said, it's okay. He was softer as ever. Everytime I expected myself to get some cold slap in the face, I get a light pinch and a smile.

He's back, softer. He said, in the future he would be busier. But even if the quantity reduces, the quality will be there, he said. He said, he would never give up. He said, these years he tried to go after some other people, but they didn't work, cuz it's just not right.

I don't wanna view it as him unable to find someone else then he comes back to me.
Even tho the voice may force me to think like that.

Give it a try.
Give it a try.

I think it's cool that sometimes I can feel two voices. Haha. It's starting to grow.

One side telling me not to believe.
Another side telling me to embrace him.

Wood will always win.

Miracles happen, but it takes both of us to work together for it.

It begins from me alone, of course it failed.
Now it's him alone.

I don't wanna push him away, actually...
Stubborn ass heart.

I'm so fucking conflicting.