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I know how to deal with my mistakes. I'll be more careful next time that's all. Well, my sister made me drive anyway. She made me pick up the car keys. She made me pulled off from jaya1. Eh we got there thanks to my stupid data. I can't believe my data allowed me to use waze. I don't get why she likes to turn here and there, thinking she'd guess correctly. I thought asking him would be faster. Well, thanks alot for being so fucking unhelpful?! If you wanna scold me for not paying attention when you bring me around, I repeat! When you send me anywhere, I only look at you. I don't look anywhere else. Just you. Ok? And yes you're a bad guy. But girls like bad boys, and you're the best among all. Screw everyone else.

I made my sister promised to treat me something to eat, just because I need to taste, not exactly hungry. I wanted apple cider. I wanna try that so badly but she ignored me and got us something fat. Perfecto. Anyways I think I'm more familiar with that area rn. At least I know how to relate the places around that bridge.
Still, thanks for being so unhelpful. Wanted to say something mean but ended up just "thanks". Ugh. What am I to you.

Alright I made my sister watch miracles in cell to make her cry, but I almost cried. Fuck. And also. that short anime movie, fuccckkkk I'm full of emo movies today.

Life sucks, but we still have to live it. Yesterday, Arrogant ass told me bout his drama. Ohh he has drama! He's a normal person after all, which acts like he has everything under control. We were all fooled by his acts.

He is like that too. He's definitely fucking perfect. Badminton pro, top student in studies, a good son, an awesome person to be with. But he's actually full of negativity. Leaving him, is hard. And when it's finally getting ok, when it seems he just need some space,, he seems like he's struggling in a lot of stuff too. Sometimes, negative words pop out from his WA. I'm surprised he tells me, tho not all the time, but he tells me. And I can't do anything to be helpful. He doesn't need me to say anything, he'll reject anything I offer. I can't evem try to be a friend. That's ok, I understand. But it's sad. Does anyone else see his snapchat stories and try to cheer him up? I hope there are people doing that for me. Just not flirt with him. Ugh.

Sometimes I hope he's mean to everyone. So he won't get hit on by some typical playgirls. I hope he sees me really sincerely wanting the best for him. I hope he knows what I'm thinking. But hahahahaha in my dreams.

Right now I'm gonna live two weeks without seeing him. I can do this.

I can do this. I have photos. Yeah. Fuck.