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Yesterday, today. I archived you twice, but you yourself chose to pop up back in my recent conversation list. You enjoy being the top, right? I too enjoy you being the top. Every fucking attempt trying to give up on you, failed.

Every attempt. After I made myself hate you, you just pop out in whatever way and makes me think, no. You're worth the effort, cuz your heart remains with me. I love the way you tell me stuff like this. Randomly, suddenly. Sometimes, you pop out when I'm extremely busy. But that's okay! Unless... unless we start the fighting talks again. That drove me mad.

So now what?

Continue the suicide, or... start new? What. Archive again? Will you pop back out? The reason I can't give up on you is I still see you. And you're the best thing that happened every week.

I wish I have a clear answer. I wish I can fly to the future to just take a short peek. Am I supposed to move on, or stay? I need a shortcut. Life, give me a tip, man.