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I think I kinda regret downloading snapchat.

I was okay for not texting him, not knowing what he's up to except for once awhile. I was okay seeing his fb availability, which was always "2mins ago", sometimes 5

Having his snapchat, I see his stories. Whatever he snaps for fun, whatever he's doing. But that's all I can do. I can just see and be a fucking passerby, like a stranger.

I can see him stressed out, or having fun, everything, but I can't do anything, and I just wanna talk to him.

But I guess he dislikes my companion. So yeah if I care I just gotta stay the distance, fuck off his life, and just stay away from him.

I've installed it. I wouldn't give up the chance to know what he's doing.

But that would be self torture.

I'm so,,, so fucked.

And that's the reason I really really should let go