Quit ?

Everybody degrading me. Shut tf up.

Dad kept encouraging me to switch to auto. I don't wanna do that. I asked him why. He said manual is hard to pass. Since we can take auto now, why manual? And he said, he doesn't want me to retake. He wants me to pass it fast and easily and get it done.

You're saying I can't do what others can do. The instructor was slightly impatient. She said everyone else got it so quickly but I kept processing. Yeah. I'm slow. Let me process. Let me practice. Fuck everyone. I'm scared of the road, and also controlling a vehicle. You should be worry more, if I do everything fast. I'll kill us before I even head to anywhere.

I said it's hard doesn't meant I'm giving up, dad. Add math is hard. Chemistry is hard. Should I just give up studies and start working? Bar chords are hard to press. I should quit guitar too? Wtf? Seriously. Just let me practice! Damn wtf is wrong.

Why tf can't any of you give me a little bit of mental strength, but just telling me to give up, and how fucking slow I am? So fucking frustrated.

I will fucking pass this shit. Even if it requires a few attempts. At least I am trying. Don't tell me to give up chemistry, or add math, or driving a manual car. If you don't wanna get your own life but continue to mock my failures, well, K.

Well if I failed, I'll use my monthly pocket money. Don't say that I'm wasting. Whatever. Doesn't affect anyone else anyway.

Get a life.