.

I have problems.

Mind kept flashing back, to that day, that day when you told me how tired you were.
and then you gave me a last wish.

And then rewind more,
to that day, a few days after your birthday.
When I started losing it,
You asked if I could stay for a night,
That week, I wanted to give up.
You made me stay.

Further rewind, to my birthday.
We watched Cinderella that day.
Do you remember?
Then my mom called to tell us to get home before 12,
to cut the cake.

That day, I was so exhausted.
if not mistaken, it was one day camp too.
I was disappointed at how camp went, as part of organizer.
Then you brought me to a nice restaurant.
You bought me cakes, and took a video.

I lost that video.
It's gone, along with the rest of the audios saving in the laptop.
The audios that saved your voice saying I love you, and goodnight
I was happy, but so tired, but so happy.

I decide to not bother you too much.
I will know whether you're busy or not, from the way you talk.

I'll study hard, and I'll miss you.

I'd like you to know that..
You're a part of me that I can never ever let go.
If you're alone, you need someone to talk to,
you could always come to me.

My only wish, is to have another chance
to appreciate you and make your life better.
I'll give the kind of support that you need, but not burden.

I'll now wash my face, stop rewinding, stop being sad about it,
and DO MY FUCKING HOMEWORK.

Heh. I'm going crazy, you know ?
When I drove back home,
Everytime the steering wasn't straight,
I went off my lane a little.

I thought, it'll be so easy to die. One hard turn,
and I'll be dead.
And no more, all of this nonsense.
No more sadness.
No more rewinding,
No more me.
haha. Just a thought.