Wood

I wish I can ask for your effort. I wish I can tell you I need you when I need you. I'm just scared to annoy you. I'm scared of you hating me. I'm scared of you saying that I'm not appreciating. I'm scared of you saying I wouldn't understand how busy you are in uni.

I understand. I understand, so well.

I also understand that you're not putting any effort in maintaining us, or fixing our relationship. I can't do this alone. I wish you know that. I need you. I need you so badly..

Wish you know how awful it was having you sleeping off without any word.
Wish you know how awful my day was.
Wish you know how much I love you.
With the memories gone, I'm just. I don't know how to go on.

I wish I have your care.
I wish I can find you at my worst.

Yeah he really slept off.
I wonder if he thinks of me.
I wonder if he misses me or not.
I wonder how the workshop went.
I wonder,
When will we ever go back to those days, I can finally feel safe even when he's asleep...

Insecurities kill.
Sadness kills.
Everything kills.

So just put on a smile and don't let him know anything.
Don't let them know anything.

Pretend that life is fine.
Pretend that life is perfect.

Smile.
Stop crying and
Fucking smile.

I'm so sorry I thought you slept off. It was the wifi speed dragging. I'm so so sorry. Not exactly blaming you....

Felt much better having small talk with you...
Being tagged by you....

Maybe he does think of me, that's why he tagged me.

Ily wood. I'll make us work out again. I'll try my very best to fix our relationship. Iloveyoucjw