Empty

So much understanding and compromise.
Is it?

Recently I've been scrolling fb way too much. I've been scrolling insta. Scrolled until I was looking at the same posts over and over again. I've been craving food. I've been craving drinks. I want to drink, and I don't know why.

Maybe I'm a little empty. I've been missing one person. But that one person has been really busy. Shits happened that needs him to solve them, one by one it comes subsequently. It pisses me off why that timing comes when we finally have time for each other but I don't have reasons to be pissed. I can only say that.... He didn't ask for these things to happen. I can't blame him. I can't blame anyone.

I can only sit here, try to study, scroll social media a lot a lot, until I'm so frustrated over nothing. I have approx ten days of holidays, but he's only here for lile four days. Two days passed. He's not around. He's been busy. I hate his client. Why? Raya break, why take him? Fuck off. Haiz. What to do?

I hate ruined plans. But there's nothing I can do when there are no plans at all. Tbh. Yeah we didn't really plan. So? I've been waiting for so long. All these time, waiting waiting, and I don't know. I thought you'd be free. You were never free. We have so little time, and I'm emptying them all. I empty them, to standby for you. But I'm just sitting here like an idiot. Idk when it's gonna end. It's like... You'll be away all the time, but when you're back, it doesn't make a difference.