Physically

I wasn't having a great weekend, because.... I was making a fuss over fate. Raya weekend, four days holidays for my vip. But then, I had him mine for less than two hours. All this while I was patiently waiting. I was always waiting to the point I'm starting to think. Am I his vip tho? What exactly does action means in long distance? There's no such thing as actions. I was slightly troubled. I put everyone, everything aside just to standby, but there was nothing at all. Made me felt like a dumb shit. I did craved alcohol for a week, but I only drank last night. There were some guests, I was still troubled. So I finally poured wine for myself. One and another, it was so good. Had more than like six glasses. Too good. Then I decided to voice up a little.

The outcome was good. There was no outcome. I guess I didn't expect any outcomes, just wanted him to know that he's my vip. And he understood. Good enough. Life was fine. I pushed a few invitations, but then started to accept all the rest. So my sunday was packed like fuck.

The entire morning to noon was spent at the river. Evening was spent on a badminton court. Finally badminton with sis. That was pretty satisfying.

Earlier, in my room, I taught her to swing. She swung weirdly. Like korean drama girls trying to playfully hit their boyfriends. So stiff. I only told her, relax. It's kinda like holding a bow. Blahblah. Point it, swinging. Idk if she could get it right on the court tho. Then I taught her footwork in my room, again. Our room, actually. It's a small room. Half of the room is used up thanks to the bed, my table, two wardrobes and a book rack. There was barely space for my office chair to roll across. But anyway, I still taught her footwork here. MiNi version. So she did tiny footworks, but accurate ones. So she could maximize her steps on the court. Anyway....

Today finally we did it officially on the court. I think it was fucking satisfying. That improvement. And she told me her swing did improved. She said Salty fish's man dropped her to make her run like fuck before. And with her improved swing, it was harder to drop like that. Which made me fucking satisfied. Oh god.

Maybe I could fuck up an arm. But I can still see her doing it for me. Maybe I can train people just fine. Maybe I could work with my coach. Hahaaahah. Ok ignore me. It was fun training her. But I think I lost my voice from the way I spoke when I trained her. Fucckkkk. Suddenly realize how hard it is to be a coach.

I have a nice fam. Even if my vip failed me, I have my fam. Chicken helped me to get movie ticket for tomorrow. So I didn't waste my reward which worths RM12. I've had the following days planned for my sister too. Since she's suddenly free due to raya break. She even asked her friends out to satisfy my singk needs. Omg. She is love.

It was a half disappointing weekend. I've expected more, which is my fault actually. but thanks to fam, it wasn't such a bad weekend. People who are there makes a difference.