Just because he agreed that I constantly update him about nice songs, doesn't mean that's a lasting thing. It doesn't go one way. I've heard nice songs. I've went to singk. I've been listening to a lot.

But when I look at fb, the knot is still there. Friend, are you still a friend ?

When you care about someone, but had to know about that someone through other people.. still not knowing how did things went.

The only thing you can do is flip your album to remind yourself, or go through the audip recordings to listen for yourself. I've called him by his full name once when I was tipsy. And I told him to be healthy and well for the next sixty years. He said, alright, he would. Hilarious audio. I sounded bad. Like I drank so much. But actually it was my bad alcohol tolerance.

So was it the nightmare that brought us closer together?
Was it the nightmare that made me care a little more than I'm supposed to? Was it the care that touched him a little more than he was supposed to be? A nightmare, a couple of drinks that drove me tipsy showed him, I'd want him well.

But it's all gone now.