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I wanna be with him. Lifetime wish.
I screwed it up. There's no turning back.
I wanna improve myself.
I screwed up a few tests. I don't think I can.
I wanna keep whatever he left for me.
I lost all our photos. I broke the gift a while ago. And now I lost the only birthday gift he gave.
I know I'm a terrible gf. I'm a terrible ex.

I can't take good care of stuff. I thought I put it in the little pouch, I keep them safety in my bag everytime I'm done using. And then in my drawer when I get home. I thought I cleaned them up shiny. I thought it well kept. And it's just gone. Definitely fell off from my bag.
I thought I broke my streak,. of breaking earphones. 

It lasted for only a year. Our relationship lasted for 9 months. Your gift only lasted for a year.
Nothing can last, with me.
I thought this could last for years.
I thought we could last a lifetime.

I deserve losing things I love the most.