.

I'm surprised by myself. So I have the ability to hide every feelings behind my fake ass poker face.

I did everything, and it doesn't work. It's time to let go.

I told myself, after I get.out of bathroom, I'm going to continue studying. I have loads of stuff to do. I can't jump in bed and cry just because of this already dead relationship. I have to continue living.

It hurts like fuck.

Seeing him laughing and communicating better with my very own bestie. I'm dying inside. But what can I do?

Pineapple stay away from him you two make me uncomfortable? No. She's my friend. And he's just my ex. I have no business there.

Do I look like I mind?
I mind. I wanna die so badly but I couldn't say a thing.

That's it, that's it.

Doesn't matter what happens next, no matter how he looks like he hasn't move on, that's none of my business. I give up.

Please pray hard that I die asap. I want to die. Right now. It's just so hard.