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Yesterday, I listened to an emo song. Then shits flashed back, I thought about how he treated me like shit, he could possibly kill my right ear. Such an emotional day.

Tbh I'm not expecting anything anymore. Sincerely wanting to stay single forever rn. Then also, frustrating bout my own shits. As in studies, etc.

I blamed my parents for bringing me here. Told them, you shouldn't have forced me here. I'm a little ungrateful piece of shit. I know. I should stop blaming them for making me female instead of male.

I was planning how I'm gonna skip meals and workouts. Then he appeared, and he made me smile. That smile which only exists with his presence. That wasn't planned. I was expecting my phone to not light up like that forever. I was planning to put my phone permanently on silent, as no one would find me.

But he did. And made me hate life lesser. That's not fair! How did he do that?

I'm gonna find out, and make him unable to do that. I hate living and that's not anyone's business to change that. Once I'm done, I'll leave this fucked up world for good.