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Shut up. Stop asking me why am I so sad. Like I said, I'm fucking, perfectly happy! So fucking happy, so get your life and leave me alone doing chemistry!

I'm sad, because I'm dumped by the one I love the most. I'm sad because I made the decision to stay with him til death do us apart. I'm sad because all these aren't real. I'm sad because I thought he loves me as much as I love him. I was looking forward, to celebrate a year being together with him. Then another year, then another year. Then the day I finally get to wake up next to him, to see his sleepy adorable face every morning. I was looking forward, to listen to his heartbeat and snores, to sleep. I was looking forward to be waken up by his kisses, like how he used to during our naps. I was looking forward. We planned stuff. He said he would bring me to universal studio. He said he would watch thT movie with me. I said we could use up that voucher together. And now it's being left there. I'm not gonna use it. I'm not gonna watch it. I'm not gonna touch them. I want to wait. Wait until we get better. I want to wait. I don't want to continue life.

It's just a fight. Were our relationship that weak? Was it so easy to give up on me? Am I that terrible? Are you happy, destroying all hopes that I love you for?

I don't know what to do now.
I just don't know what to do anymore.