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I was trying to math. And it was weird. The formula for varience is total x minus mean square over frequency. But why in this question it gave total x minus mean square times frequency equals 8?? So I diveded the frequency, twice. But it's still not right.

So. I googled. But I don't know how to Google. So I got into my phone system emoji. There's no mean. Out of curiosity, I swiped along. To see if the new emojis are in there. The middle finger is not there.

And there I saw an emoji he would use, when he loved me.
I typed in the search box.
The last time he sent it was four months ago.

And my Stupid finger scrolled along.

So that's how I screw up a day.

I wamt to talk to him.

I miss us. I want us to be okay again.
I can't be the one playing around with these things. How can you not be serious when you dive into a relationship!? I can't be like a player. I can't just walk into others' lives for fun and then walk out as I like. I can't, not take it seriously.

I can't possibly move on.

I'm a fucking idiot, that would be better if I'm not interested in human like that. Then I'd be relationshipless and stay at the safe side forever.

Our best moments haunt me, everytime I stuck in things. Like just now I stuck in the question. I close my eyes and feel your adorable pecks on the face. I feel your smell, your voice.

You're the one I gave the power to,, to do anything. And your last decision is killing me even tho you're already gone.

After this, I will never ever give that power to anyone else. One thing I could be sure of,
I'm safe from betrayals.
But still dead.