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Im lucky My sister has stuff to do every Monday. I'm lucky to have the room. without anyone else. I'm lucky I have that tiny spesker.
Actually have a test tomorrow. Tho it's just mpu subject.
After all it went back to zero.
Every time they ask, I'd say, we're 15% back together. Recently I thought we're at least 16%.

Maybe it has always been 0%.

It's a terrible day.
I don't mind waiting for him.
But it sounds like, he's waiting for me to give up.

Why won't I get used to these kinds of pain.
And it doesn't get better.
At the end I still have to jump in bed, pretend to be asleep and get over it.

Should've died that day.
I wanna talk to him so badly.

Alright stop.

It was my fault.

Guys. If one day you broke up with your girl, just because you think you two don't match. I guess you'll be handing her heart to the reaper.

Maybe she'll move on. That would be years later, after every night destroying the eyes. Wetting the pillowcases. Maybe destroying many fragile things. Maybe screwing up some important tests. Yeah.

And that's fine.
If you think, as long as she doesn't suicide she'll be fine,,
If breathing means fine,,
Yeah.

How awesome it is. Able to breathe but wanting to quit this life.

I always think that I have a very dumb college classmate. She craves for a relationshit.

Why would you volunteerily walk into your own grave like that.
I wish her lucky enough to find a serious person.

I'll screw up my life. Let's hope I live a short life.b