Sick

When I'm sick, I think about him a lot. No. I think about him all the time. I'm just more often sleeping, having weird dreams, and laying down and having time to think.

I think my immunity sucks. 

I remember, when he was starting to have some symptoms, and I was hoping it to not be dengue. I just wanna kiss him and get sick the next day, then we don't have to wait for the results to know.

I was blank in class last week, and I spend the weekend mostly sleeping.

Fuck.

Seriously need to get up.

There are no breaks.
Okay. No more. Naps.

Ughhhstopsleepingyh

2/3
My phlegm is fucking thick and GREEN(EW). I feel like melting. Headache just fucked off. Sore throat is much better but I'm still burning and sweating like hell. I wish it's nothing bad. I never skipped any day of vitamin. Yes I always cursed myself. But then, I have hope in us. I think we can make it, some day. Even if not, I'll have to bear with it. It'll be okay.

But for now I wanna focus on studies. So please, pathogens. Leave me alone and let me have the strength to work hard. I want to study. I need that energy I used to have. I can't waste any more time here. It's killing time. Just give me back that strength.

Wood wood cares. I think.
I tagged him in some fb stuff. He tagged me too, in some. I just want him to know, whenever I see nice things, I think of him. I always think of him, and he's always at the top in my heart. I think he felt that. It's just another way to tell him, hey, I miss you and I care about you. I'll just tag you here so I can imagine you smile when watching, and that's enough. Keep up with your work, stay fine and healthy. Yeah, that's all I need. I don't need to start a chat with him to tell him I care and I love him. This is another way to remind him.

I'm happy he started a chat with me yesterday. Even tho it's hell freaking short, it's adorable. He's just nice. :) I wish we get better. I wish he's always okay. But if one day that miracle happens, I will thank everyone in this planet that makes that happen. I will not take it for granted. If that happens, I will make sure he doesn't regret. Damn I'm dying.

Alright get up. Getttup