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I'm just gonna talk about today. It's an awesome day. 

I woke up sad, I forgot why. I just remember wood was in it, and I went back to sleep, to forget that dream. Obviously without me flashing back hard, I couldn't remember it. And it's a damn good thing. Well I wish the past two years are like that. 

Moon asked me out for lunch and I said yes. I have no idea why, because he said let's spin pokestops. Ok I'm running out of pokeballs. Did I said yes to a guy just to spin pokestops? Yeah I did. What the hell. So out of my mind. Anyways he showed me a gym battle. It's so hard, actually. After that we parted to do our stuff. I went to the staff room to do some sorting. Miss F saw me! And I was breaking the rules like crazy, slippers and shorts, suprised she didn't lecture me for that. Frozen to death, next stop: library. Luckily I still kept orange's ID and password, I kinda used her account to do some work. College forces everyone to create one of those then only we're allowed to use the computers. Troublesome. I planned to go to college an hour early to do all those stuff, but used twice that time. Wow. And still not completely done. Lucky moon brought me to college early? 

Badminton was terrible at first. Well, as usual. I suck. Sukma girl partnered legend, versus me and moon. Moon was good, but legend and sukma girl! That's like the strongest team. If we can beat them, we can win. Hell no. Legend and sukma girl can just drag my tiny ass confidence down to hell and bury it there. I can't play. Legend wasn't even putting any effort. It's like a freaking chicken trying to kill a T-rex. What? 

Moon left early, I tried to train myself. There are ways. Heh. Sun (used to call him sheep but.. sun is more suitable) was an awesome companion. His adorable screams. Damn I just can't. We just stroked, intensively and it was exciting, tiring to death. I guess today I played with him the most. It was awesome defense training. He serves, I smash, he defenses, I lift, he smashes. The cycle goes on and on. We both get to practice killing and defensing at the same time! That was hell exciting. I think we're kinda okay cuz sometimes I actually can kill him, and he could kill me too. Legend was training the other guy, Damn he looked so bored. XD Sun brightened up everything I guess. Talking to someone really could make everything better. Plus sun was cute, the attitude kind of cute. His name suites him. Those laughs can be everyone's sunshine. Happy thing was he said my defenses improved, and he said nah playing with me wouldn't be bored. 

So you got betrayed and that's why you were so negative about relationships? 

*smiles*

I think my defenses improved because guys used to not smash me like this, they think it's bully to girls.

Good thing we don't see you as a girl here, *laughs innocently* :3 Damn I like that laugh. 

I kinda snapped a few peeps how shitty playing like a newbie felt. Then I received an audio, an encouraging audio. Moon kinda gave the kind of pep talk I always needed wood to give. Sincerely, thanks man. 

Remember to bring back your phone, and charger, it's at the plug. And don't feel so down, it's a progress, etc, etc. 

Haha thanks, but if I forgotten my phone, I wouldn't have heard this audio. :3 

Wood actually texted me today. I change my WA status a little often, because sometimes wood replies to them. He replied to me today. A long time ago, he said he reads it when he misses me. Is it still the same situation? Should I give zero fucks or overthink and get happy then get sad again? Zero fucks will do. 

Hey YH where are you going? 

To change. 

Let me accompany you, it's so dark. 

I'm okay with the dark, I believe in ghosts but I don't think they're after me

It's okay 

*I opened a door to legend hugging onto my racket bag adorably* :)

What are you eating? *moon emoji*

Grandma's cooking!

Can I try? 

Of course. 

And at the end, another guy is gonna try out my grandma's cooking before wood does. 

Some people be like 'I love you', the next day 'I don't think this is working'

And nothing else make sense at all. 

Life is filled with nice people. 

Whenever you feel terrible, think of those stuff. People with cute laughs, great training buddies, caring people. Whatever shit stuff, it's over. Don't go back to the person that broke you. And there's no point wanting what could have happened. He left, and that's no reason for me to not live an interesting life. 

One year, I'm done. Even if I'm back to the apartment, the skating rink, even if I'm back to wherever we've been to, that's just a dream that makes no sense at all. I'm done. So, so done.