Life is actually really nice to me. It allowed me to had crushes that never even embarrassed me. (Yes I'm freaking proud of my taste in guys) It allowed me to had my very first love as a really really great one. It gave me a few besties that aren't temporary at all. It gave me a really flexible family, that they allowed me to do stuff that people on my age couldn't even(crazy curfews). It gave me so many things. Instead of trying to not be happy, I should just appreciate it so so badly and return it a big smile. I'm really happy these days. I never knew, holidays can be so... exciting, just because of one guy.
I'm sure it was because we're both badminton addicts. Maybe it's that hard to find badminton addicts in this area. So when I found one, I never wanna let go. It's kinda rare to see such positivity in one person rn. Well, you spread positivity, I guess.
Losing faith in people can be passed down. Idk what pushing you away would do to you, but that's so not gonna happen. I've had terrible things passed down to me, by people I care lot. I, too had passed them to people around me, that cares bout me. Not gonna happen anymore. Shit ends here. Wounds gotta heal, and there's nothing I can do to prevent injuries. Being paranoid just isn't how it works. I'm just limiting myself in this small box.
It's been a long time since I stare at the ceiling and smile, instead of getting really depressed.
I have no idea what you've seen in me that makes you think I'm worthy, but I'm really thankful for that. I wish I'll never ruin it with my stupid assumptions and insecurities shit. Gonna appreciate while it lasts, until it ends. I wish you don't run away after fully knowing me, cuz I might not be whatever you imagined me to be.
I'm sure it was because we're both badminton addicts. Maybe it's that hard to find badminton addicts in this area. So when I found one, I never wanna let go. It's kinda rare to see such positivity in one person rn. Well, you spread positivity, I guess.
Losing faith in people can be passed down. Idk what pushing you away would do to you, but that's so not gonna happen. I've had terrible things passed down to me, by people I care lot. I, too had passed them to people around me, that cares bout me. Not gonna happen anymore. Shit ends here. Wounds gotta heal, and there's nothing I can do to prevent injuries. Being paranoid just isn't how it works. I'm just limiting myself in this small box.
It's been a long time since I stare at the ceiling and smile, instead of getting really depressed.
I have no idea what you've seen in me that makes you think I'm worthy, but I'm really thankful for that. I wish I'll never ruin it with my stupid assumptions and insecurities shit. Gonna appreciate while it lasts, until it ends. I wish you don't run away after fully knowing me, cuz I might not be whatever you imagined me to be.
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