I just saw wood's fb post. A photo of an award he just gotten. Caption sounds really happy. I'm happy for him. First thing I said to myself was "Can I love?' I remember reading this from somewhere, at the end, the only way you keep in touch is by fb reactions. True.
He's always so far away. Even when he has returned home, even when he's just right in front of me, just a step away. Distance aren't always defined by the physical distance.
I just disabled his customized notifications. It still slightly saddens me, but I'm able to do it.
Guess what? He's no special than anyone else anymore. Silent notifications, not even 'Close friends' in fb. Who's cutting onions?
I'm perfectly fine without him. If by any chance he reads this, wood, you succeeded to make me go. I might not even cry if you remove me from fb. It makes no difference. Facts are, you decided to end any shit in between us, and I grant you. Relationshit, friendshit, I grant it all. I'm no longer addicted to the possibility of 'us'.
Years later when I look back, I'm gonna thank you for being an ass to me for a while. Cuz it did helped. And when you look back, I wish you realize that you've lost someone that truly cares bout you, and would do anything for you no matter what.
One day, I'm gonna be okay to turn on the sounds, my heart will be damn fine receiving notifications from anyone, anyone but you. It'll be the other way round. I wouldn't want to receive from you anymore. My heart is whole when I'm alone. And I'd look at you, thinking, this is the guy that made me want to end life so bad, and stop having faith in people.
I would gladly NOT fix the hardisk anymore because some memories are better not flipped through. If life wants me to lose all those photos, alright then. The photos won't mean anything to me in the future anyway. I can't even believe it's possible for someone to cry over a broken hardisk because of the photos of someone. Fucking dumbass.
He's always so far away. Even when he has returned home, even when he's just right in front of me, just a step away. Distance aren't always defined by the physical distance.
I just disabled his customized notifications. It still slightly saddens me, but I'm able to do it.
Guess what? He's no special than anyone else anymore. Silent notifications, not even 'Close friends' in fb. Who's cutting onions?
I'm perfectly fine without him. If by any chance he reads this, wood, you succeeded to make me go. I might not even cry if you remove me from fb. It makes no difference. Facts are, you decided to end any shit in between us, and I grant you. Relationshit, friendshit, I grant it all. I'm no longer addicted to the possibility of 'us'.
Years later when I look back, I'm gonna thank you for being an ass to me for a while. Cuz it did helped. And when you look back, I wish you realize that you've lost someone that truly cares bout you, and would do anything for you no matter what.
One day, I'm gonna be okay to turn on the sounds, my heart will be damn fine receiving notifications from anyone, anyone but you. It'll be the other way round. I wouldn't want to receive from you anymore. My heart is whole when I'm alone. And I'd look at you, thinking, this is the guy that made me want to end life so bad, and stop having faith in people.
I would gladly NOT fix the hardisk anymore because some memories are better not flipped through. If life wants me to lose all those photos, alright then. The photos won't mean anything to me in the future anyway. I can't even believe it's possible for someone to cry over a broken hardisk because of the photos of someone. Fucking dumbass.
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