It's very unlikely rare cases happen after we actually have that thought for a moment. Yip man and I had a talk about this, relationship stuff. Not just the bf gf relationship, friendship too. Uhm. It's pretty much the same, right?
Wood scared me a couple times. Big shock. Everything was way different from before. He used to be the one making me shut up while I leave and get sad mad. Today, he appeared. I tried shooing him really meanly, then I noticed he actually... Saw my status and was concerned. He cared. It was so unusual. And that's when I stop being so mean, and we talked like old friends. It's like... My closest cousin and I. The best kind of argument. It was actually fun, he was funny, he teased me, and I teased him back. It felt ok.
Do you think I'm over you? My heart raced still.
*-.-* probably, probably not?
What a reply.
I think this friendship hasn't end yet. He didn't avoid me like he used to. Odd. And I have a feeling that's because he noticed how I stopped wanting to fix the relationship. As long as I stop, we're still crazy friends.
I feel bad. I said yes without doubt, without any hesitation. We're badminton buddies. That's all, and I would like to really treat him as one and see if I could make it. I want to stare him in the eyes and say, I don't love you anymore. I want to have him right next to me and not have the urge to lean towards him.
Moon asked me first but I said yes right away to wood. What was I thinking? I have no clue. I hate myself for doing it. But I couldn't say no.
What I couldn't believe was.. Moon was worried. He was worried because of what wood did that made me afraid of having faith. I'm very extremely sorry for this.
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