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Overthinking kills. I know that so well, hah. How wood's overthinking hurt both of us, how my overthinking hurt both of us. Too many 'What if's. What if this happens next?

What if I fell and someone skates across my fingers? Would that make me not wanna skate? I guess worrying would just worsen the present and the future situation. 

Today was a great day, which means tomorrow I will suffer. 

Not letting myself being too happy. Happiness is an addiction. It's so easy to get happy and get used to it. When you think you lose the source, you get depressed for such a long time. And when you got over it, another source appears out of nowhere. 

Everything is temporary. Might as well live with that. Temporary happiness, temporary people. Promises are never real. It's just a temporary promise. I swear I will blahblahblah. 

They'll just remember that for five minutes. 

I rather get surprises randomly, random little things can make me happy. The best thing about that is I wouldn't expect any. Finding a long lost pen. Suddenly chatting with close friends for just half and hour. Buying a hot pastry with my sister. Every unplanned stuff can be enough. 

It's already enough, and I don't want more of it. I don't want promises, I don't want to invest feelings on something that can be gone in just one sec. Cuz life is cruel, it takes everything away when you believe it so much. 

Insecurities are important, to save you from terrible injuries. It lessens the impact each time. 

Forget everything each day. Please yh, don't believe, don't look at how awesome it is. The greater it seems, the more terribly it'll make you suffer. But how am I gonna forget? It's like forgetting the taste of pizza. So impossible.