Chicken ginger

7.47am. rn. I woke from a dream. A different one. Recently I've been dreaming about idk.what dreams, but ET was usually inside. Today I had this one dream, I was at my ex's house. I went there because it was his mother's birthday. I told her happy birthday, gave her a hug, small talked. All that while,.he was in the study room. I was outside, living room, safe. When he came out, I saw him. I hid. Obviously he still saw me. But we didn't talk to each other. Super awkward that I decided to leave. Dream over.

Anyway i forgot to blog about last night? Last night was an awesome night. Right after exams, I texted chicken breast and ginger. Told them I'm free so please do jio baddy. I know, we were old friends that didn't contact much already. But I didn't expect the outcome to be that efficient. They both invited me to play on the same freaking day, different time. Not clashing but I was lazy. I only said onz to one.

However, this chicken was crazy enough to ask "can I join?" I asked ginger and he agreed. I think they're both awesome. Chicken wasn't a very talkative person. He gets talkative to be because he was after pineapple. Lmao. Then ginger, I still had a feeling he was after me at one short period. We were considered close. However this ginger is quite sociable. We could just ignore his slight resting bitch face, he's actually friendly. I like that.

Chicken picked me up and we gathered at ginger's place, then ginger fetched us to the venue, which is a condo. These people look really YOUNG. But they're really really good. Initially I was worried that I brought a friend, which made them overcrowded. But I was wrong. It's a must to bring chicken. Chicken was good enough to form a team with them. So four good players, including chicken and ginger, perfecto. Then... it happened so that when we were resting, I sat next to one of the very good players. I call him nicsman. Wow he's friendly. This is exactly what I need. Knowing new people. Just cuz... I've been antisocial for some time when I was with my ex. His antisocial trait makes me keep him busy, which made me antisocial, which I hate a lot. Plus he didn't even like me having friendships with new peeps. Evil, pure evil. I like how this contrasts him and ET. ET strongly encouraged me to meet new people, know new people, explore and learn. Sounds really good. Which is why I joined badminton.

From nicsman I get to know that they're all abt 24 to 28. Super young. There was a girl also. But not a regular player, just other pro person's sister. That one was just 22. So young! I can't believe I'm talking about how young they are when I'm the youngest. I guess I just got used to joining older peeps. Fun. Nicsman, 25, accountant. Super fit, super pro badminton player. I wowed at his many shots. Gah. So pro. I believe he can beat my ex. So stable. Fast and firm footwork. I wish I have that strength and skills. Awesome inspiration. The thing is, they're social. Very nice and friendly, there's this warm temperature, unlike how alone and awkward I felt when my ex invited me to play with his Saturday squad. I can't believe I looked forward to supper (because that's just the way badminton players bond.) While he said he never joined supper. From this we can see why the atmosphere is different. He isolated himself. Idiot.

However, ginger said they don't supper. But they gym after badminton, and sit around, to chit chat. It's even better. Instead of getting fat, they bond by getting fit. Fucking awesome. Plus they speak canto. Can train me. HAHAA.

OK I'm just happy I found an overall friendly squad. And ginger was still nice. He speaks like a cat. So soft. Ish. But we still close. I like that really much. I like how we can be far apart, completely no contact BUT when we meet, we catch up and we're good. It's gold. It's important. It's like my cousins.

I think I'm a different person when it comes to bonding. I don't bond well with group people. I can voluntarily make friends with new people one by one, by approaching them one by one. Felt more comfortable like that. And because of that, I actually do have friends. Many, and scattered around in this world, which is super good. I don't have to be like pineapple. We have our ways to be sociable. My way, this is how. When I meet one person, face to face, that's when we both feel safe, and there can be the heart to heart talk. Maybe what I need is a massive party to bring them together? HAHAHA. Jk. Why would I need to bring them together?

Sometimes, I thought. This guy, I know all his friends. He can just tell me who he's meeting up with by name because I know them all. While he doesn't know any of my friends. And it's an issue on letting him know my friends, because they scatter like that. It's just... It's weird if I meet with my friend individually with him around. My friend would feel like a light bulb isn't it. And the initial privacy comfy would be gone, couldn't even talk like usual. Idk. Maybe it's a stupid concern? But it's something to think about. I wonder, is it good to have close yet far away friends who seldom meet up but can make a good day when meet ? I mean. Idk. Hmm.

Man. How? Do I stick to badminton? Be an organizer and put them all into one court so that they can know each other? I really hope my close friends know each other. lol. Zzzzzz. Such a challenge.

Ooh I missed out one thing. LAST NIGHT. Chicken wanted to eat. So we went to ss2 murni. Old times... Guess who I met. CJ7. It's been such a long time he brought a girl. Chicken and I were like discussing who's the girl. Lmao. Turned out to be his sister. 1am, supper with sister. This is sibling goals, man. Missed him. It was so funny we reacted really crazily when we noticed each other across the area. We both took our phones and started snapping lmaooo. We should definitely plan a reunion after arrogant comes back. Too gold. He looks the same, crazy drug dealer. HAHA.

Great things. Day well spent. I'm happy that important people around me support me doing what I do.