Change

It's funny how people react when I tell them, I broke up w my ex.

They'd say, "I'm sorry."

No don't be. I'm happy. Say, I'm happy for you. Fucking hell. Saw this mark your fear survey thingy from insta. Fear. Haha. "Change" was in the list. Definitely the only thing I'd mark.

Today I asked wendy out for dinner. She's actually ok, she's super noisy, as talkative as I am. Good. Maybe this can be that one close friend in uni that I'm looking for. Haha.

I told her a lot about recent stuff. Not detailed, just brief but the plot was clear enough for her to understand my emotions. Well, who else could I talk to? The ipoh girls seems extra isolated recently. Zzz. But wendy is more than enough. It's cool how she didn't react that crazily as expected. It seems like she knows what's happening in this world. Which is nice. At the end of the day she said, it's nice hanging out with me out for dinner but 90% just talking about recent stuff. I said, kinda. I need companion. Then her straightforwardness shows up. She said she didn't think I was this easy to approach at first, because I was always hanging with my ex. Yeah. Yeah. It was wrong, it wasn't me.

Told ginger that my holidays are coming up so please jio me badminton. He agreed right away, and invited me for thurs badminton. Maybe people aren't that hard to approach, you know. It's just we sometimes got lost somewhere, forgetting that we can have people with us. I was probably lost in his hands. I only had one direction, which was him. Now, Im a free soul.

In conclusion if you wanna get a bf, get one who supports you getting more sociable. Because he knows you'd need companion when he's not around. And he knows, it's a must.

I'm going to find a badminton squad next sem. Idk how, but... Idk. I'll think about it after exams. Since all my close friends are close friends all because of badminton(exclude yip man and lychee). I mean seriously. Moon, arrogant, ET, LCW, Loong, ginger, rivergrass, pineapple, my ex. They all appeared in my life, but whether they stay or not was a different case. Even tho, most of them stayed. And all, because of badminton.

I'm completely fucking blessed, and grateful.

"Your life is worse than drama."

I don't think so, man. I've grown from a stupid idiot which cried over an asshole for ONE entire year, to forgiving that asshole then realizing my own worth, making a breakup decision and crying over it for ONE DAY. A year to a day.

I'm really afraid of how time can change things.

I'll talk to you when I see you. It's horror stories, got me a restless night. Really scary.

He said, ohh. Don't be scared. If you're scared, It will happen.
He said, make your efforts to prevent the things we fear. We can prevent it, and that fear does more damage than good.

ET's wisdom. Haha. He's that good.