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If I could get a ringgit every time I miss you, I would have enough money to live for the rest of my life, and still, would be able to pay for my own studies even if I study in the most expensive uni in the world, or even get a phd etc etc.

One post. One single fries. One nap. One breathe. One emoji. Yeah it's stupid.

No matter how hard I thought I succeeded to make myself hate you(from the last draft or post). The next ten minutes, it's there again.

Why is it, you're alive but haunting me every sec in my life? Is there ANY WAY I can remove the memory from last year's October until this year's?  Just the removal of a year's memory, my life would continue. It stopped somewhere Idk.

How unfair, I lost count having you, being the reason of my restless nights with painful eyes and chest. And two words. Two words, you fucking left.

Why am I still holding onto someone like that? I can't stop asking myself. Want the best for me? You can't even let me live in peace when we were together!

But guess what.
I will let go of you, you're like a medicine. You want the best for me. But you're making me worse, because I started consuming, and you became drug.

Still, thanks. Now I'm sure, if someone like you could look like you love so hard, and still gave up.... then the world is hopeless.

Stop drifting through life because of someone like you. Stop blaming yourself because if he loved you enough he wouldn't have gave up, he would have understood the reason why I said that.

If you turn over, and want me back. Someone please bring me out of that illusion. Bring back my senses, don't let me walk into that trap.

The one that broke you can't be the one that fixes you. Don't let the same fire burn you twice.