.

I've never been that sad since days ago. Yeah days.

Everything was going well. As usual, I made my holiday schedule busy.

I didn't want any time to daydream and over think and die. I went to places. Places filled with people. Many places.
Doesn't matter alone or with people, it still felt empty.

And one wrong step. I ruined it.

How am I supposed to start college like this?

Insecurities.
They ruin everything.

Two and a half months waiting period for you to turn back a little, it was absolute fucking hell.
I can do that again.
Two years, or even a decade.
You're worth the wait.