Wood

I miss you. I wonder. How long can I miss you like this? How long can I last, missing you like this? It's unhealthy. It's terrible. It's absolute fucking hell. I think of what day it is. It's weekday. You'll be busy. I can't even start a convo even if you're having hols or weekends. Should I even wish you on your birthday? Should I talk to you at all?

Well I have a strong feeling that I'm gonna die young. I guess I won't get to say goodbye. I'll leave without you knowing. That'd be great for you.

I wish I can become a ghost. I'll stare at you when you study. I won't move anything so you won't feel my presence. I won't haunt you, maybe I'll just kiss you gently when you're asleep.

But if I don't die young, I guess I'll really stop bothering you. I'll talk to you, after... four years. I wish we can be friends at that time.

I hate you for leaving me. I hate you for betraying me. I hate you for being a fucking liar.

But I hate you because I love you.

I have a huge headache. I have extreme crazy stomach cramp& diarrhea since morning. Back ache. Everything ache.

Almost like dying.... maybe that's why I miss jw. So much.