I drove wood out.

I wasn't hoping at all. When you asked, are there movies today? I got slightly excited, but thought, "YH Don't get your hopes high!" So I did what my head told me to. Not expecting anything. And when I almost screwed up, I was still okay.

Anyway, it happened. So now you see me drive, how was I? I think I drove okay, safety... But it felt uncomfortable. 

Today's a wonderful day. We went out, I got myself super fat meal, then a movie, then another big fat meal. It's worth it. I still call it cheat meals. When I cheated meals, I cut less the next meals. When I cheat workouts, I do punishment sets. That's how I work. But exam doesn't count. First two days of period doesn't count. 

The movie was funny. You were adorable. I love being with you so much. I really, would like to hook your arm during the movie. Haih. But at least you still allowed me to lean on. I'm glad I'm(still) able to tell you everything. Tho I was slightly worried bout what you'd say cuz I told you everything in past tense. Your responses were still great. :3 You're amazing just by not doing anything. Ugh I'm screwed because of that. 

And of course! Every single training, I see you in the conversation with the same freaking girl. I actually almost believed that you're somewhere else already. Thank god you're still here. Jealous? How could I not be? I seriously dislike her. -.-  Who told me to wait? No one! Myself! 

Something I've learnt, to make situations okay.

Calm down, and think. 

When you're about to get mad, think. What am I supposed to do, for the sake of situation but not feelings? You were yelled at, insulted. Give a smile, and tell them, you know what to do next time. Think, why are they angry. Why did you not listen? There was a reason. Tell them! 

It fixes all, doing things and not letting their harshness piss you off. 

If you're upset, sad and angry, keep it in the head. Make sure you give a poker face. Emotionless one. Think about it for five minutes, then let it go. Because you know that he's long gone. One day, someone would want him anyway. 

Just focus on how to be a better person. 

Well thank you for not laughing at my slow and steady driving. Thank you for confirming that I've lost weighy. Today was awesome. 

Worth it, if my sister really does treat me like shit because of the screwed plan.