Wood:)

I'm full of shit.

Actually, today is an okay day. He said he has a gf but he's DEFINITELY lying. Looking at how he acted could confirm that. If you have gf don't squish my face, if you have gf you don't touch me, you don't simply whack me or tickle me, you shouldn't look that good you should make yourself uglier (that wouldn't work at all anyway).. he was a daaamn boss. I don't know what to say, the pressure he gave was over level 100000, and yeah I hated it, very very much. One does not do that during matches. He did it anyways, maybe because I told him to please make me hate him.

But it wasn't his fault I was dumb and dreamy all the time. I couldn't help it, I mean. How do you make yourself 100% alert? I can't! I just wander no matter how much I tried not to. Sorry. Yeah just wake me up with your harsh tone. He's just coaching. He wants me to improve, what's wrong with that? Nothing, exactly.

So last week he was my workout friend, and this week, my personal trainer! :3 I know I'm doing things wrong, that's why I randomly asks. How do you do a 100% perfect push up? How about squat, how about bench dip? How about .......
Hehehe. He's a fucking handsome personal trainer.

However, you failed making me hate you, again. But I will fucking improve, then make you less grumpy. :3 whatever I do, I might be doing wrongly, but I guess running can't go wrong? Fuck my calves are getting uglier. Once it gets too ugly, I will stop running.

Oh and my therapist too? Heh I know I'm full of problems, all around me. Left ankle feeling unwell during runs or lands or etc. But the pain is only occasionally there. There's definitely something wrong with my back. And he said my knee cap is shifting. Alright, maybe that's why some people say my legs look abnormal. (My violin teacher, insisting that if I keep on trying to lose weight I'm gonna ruin my health lol) And my fist. My last punch hasn't heal yet lmao. Yes I regret. I'll hit my pillow next time. Or just cry and sleep. Then last is stomach. Not the region, specifically stomach. I think I had gastric twice today. Just weird. I didn't skip too many meals. I only skip when I had too much of cheat meals, or weight gaining food. But I think I'm controlling well, so no, I'm not skipping. Maybe I'm just dying soon as I wish. :3

Dying is soooo much easier.

Anyway thankyou wood who was my coach, personal trainer, therapist and adorable friend! Ah he's still so adorable. How can I ever let go? Hah. Dying.