I find myself really tempting to drink my one and only can of beer in my room. Grabbed it, put it back, play with it, no I don't need beer..

I think maybe LDR saved me. He's not the kind of person I can be with.. meeting once in two weeks... So less than three months, basically we had been together for just six days? Plus the days before he left... Maybe just accumulatively 2 weeks. I find it scary I'm still thinking about him, all the stuff. Three months, and meeting for less thar 1/8 the times, and I'm thinking about him. Never really had any chances to had phone calls or skype just because he has no stable connection... We had no stable connection.

If we met more than just two days.... I could imagine how bad the damage can get. I'm not attached because I'm not allowed to be attached. We don't meet much because we were forced to be apart. Maybe I'm not as heartless. Hopeless situations calls for hopeless measures. What to do? I've been trying. He'd been trying. At least I know it's not going right, and stop it before he wastes more money on this pointless travels.

Okay they aren't pointless.
But I'm stressed. There are different ways.  So what he did became pointless.

Haih, what to do?