Most of my friends when they see me after a long time, they give the same comment: you look happier.

But am I really actually happier? Why? To be honest, I had the happiest times of my life with my first ex. I had the best and the worst.

I'm happy after I ended that toxic relationship, and not actually because of the new one I dived into after that. It just happened to be occurring at the same time, isn't it?

Dating ET honestly was a little bit stressful. Not the type of stress my first guy gave.. I enjoyed the times, but I would strongly prefer to enjoy them a different way. Sometimes I question myself why did I accept him. Sometimes I question myself, am I right to end it ? I don't think he has strong feelings for me. I don't think I have strong feelings for him. It seems a little weird. It doesn't seem right. Maybe I can't love him like how I used to love. But I believe he's the same. He had some pasts. I only had one ex before him. It it's enough to make me this way, it's way enough to make him this way too. Gosh. But is it right?

Why am I like this? Maybe it's purely just because we didn't spend enough time together. Feelings won't be strong. Yeah. Gosh. LDR doesn't work. Nope. It's fucking meaningless cuz this little screen doesn't do good to us.