I went out with zien just now. Holy shit. I honestly think he's like one of the most innocent ones.

We really can't judge by the looks. Some people are obviously fucking innocent, example yip man who freaks over every little thing. Too cute. Gonna say that arrogant is also pretty damn innocent, even tho he doesn't look that innocent. But then, yeah his reaction tells all. And this BBTEI senior, definitely innocent, but reminds me of arrogant, which doesn't look innocent.

I realized I'm selectively different. I'm super talkative and open to most of my old close friends, but new ones... I'm not like that anymore. I share my tiny bit of pasts to certain people only. Like when they share theirs, meanwhile being emo. Emo is a disease. Has to be helped by thse kinds of talk. In a way, I'd talk about the dark shits I've went tru, to help this whoever. Lmao.

But then to others who aren't depressed and insane, it's not like I'm not talkative. Still talkative, but in a totally different way. Example: this guy. Zien. Gosh I should find a better nickname for him. Should.

If you heard a boy asking a girl out for a movie given the reason: a losing punishment from world cup gamble, would you buy it? I mean. Come on. It's cute if it's a made up story just to ask someone out. But then, I know most guys are monsters. Then, a duo photo in front of the cinema as proof. It's super cute.

I like knowing new people, but I don't wanna seem desperate, I don't wanna be overtalkative to make people misunderstood. So friendships are gonna remain friendships. I don't want new complications. Honestly, for such an innocent person, it's gonna be easy to spot whether the guy has intentions or not. But I don't see us going anywhere. Look at the distance and it shows all. I never thought we'd have any chance of having movies or meals together. So little time left, and we're just getting close. I mean. Not close, just nice to talk to. It's not everyday you find someone to talk about everything random shit. Since we mutually don't mention much about our personal life.

Sometimes I think, it's so nice to hang out with younger peeps too. Even tho, it makes me feel old. I feel older than a senior, wtf. Hopefully this feeling goes away. Whatever happened last year, I'm gonna maintain the good outcomes, mindsets, meanwhile delete the memories. I've been in bad shape. ET Loong squad led me a happier direction, then they left. It's okay, necessary and nothing to make a fuss for. There are innocent people in this world. Just don't trust easily, and we'll be fine.

Gosh I wish exam ends right away so I can sleep daily 24hrs.