Appreciate

I'm sorry for the grumpy post previously. I was really mad at my sister. It's just her pms I should just get over it. Yeah. Everyone's like ghost when tired.

Sometimes I think I'm turning to another version of wood. I think I'm turning into him. He kills when he got stressed. I'm like that too right? It made me so much fire that I explode everywhere. Ugh. Didn't it bother you, moon?

I thought, at least I was straightforward and didn't throw him around imagining, assuming. But was I really straightforward? I guess not. I lied. I was straightforward, but sometimes just towards lies. Idk why. Sorry. I can get so pissed and fucked up but act like there's nothing. You'll see a lot of impatience in me. But seriously, Idw to make all this such a big deal.

I'm gonma try to improve on that part..

I'm surprised tho, what you guys did for me. Thankful and surprised. That day I got so screwed I told wood to shut up, and apologized. He listened to me. He left without any word. He then gave me advices, suggestions, to fix that stupid stomach problem of mine. And actually tagged me in dumb gifs to cheer me up? I appreciate that. Seriously. Thank you. Then moon was observant I guess. He could sense every different dying tone of mine, and make me talk. Even tho sometimes I'd lie and put smiley emojis to make it seem ok. But thank you for your concern.

Violin teacher told me bout this thing. Last week  after our breakfast together, we had to make a bigger turn because the road was blocked due to the fire truck and stuff. He said, it must be a little fire accident. Turned out it was the one that killed four people. It's scary how smoke could easily just kill like that. It's scary how we could sleep peacefully at home then die without any warning. I'm sorry for the daughter who turned out to be studying at UCSI that time. Imagine one day you were away from home, and before you know, you lost your home. I duno her, but it must be so fucking bad....

It made me question myself. What's the problem with me? It was a little conflict. I don't hate her. I hate pms that made us all crazy. Yeah. Be incredibly thankful, and appreciate everyone who tries to care. Even if he's been a jerk. Even if you duno if he'll leave in the future. It's now that matters. Cuz we never know, right?