Rojak badminton

Ok I should be doing stuff but I needa type about this.

These days, there's a lot of stuff. Good stuff happening. After I got back from ipoh, we headed to pineapple's new condo. It's such a luxurious place omg. Finally I get to meet coco. I'm sad seeing coco less hyper... She's an old dog now. I can't believe she's the same age as the friendship between pineapple and I, ten human years and 70 dog years. Well, the purpose of the whole visit is for badminton. Gah she asked us over for badminton. Wood was planning to join, but I screwed up. I rejected a dinner, and we were so honest to each other I couldn't even stand texting him. I sense his pain. At the end, ginger joined us. I feel so paiseh when I realized how terrible the court is. Hahhaahaha omg.

The other day seaweed asked if I want to badminton. Pineapple suggested it to be today so I planned it. It was so fucking rojak. Ginger joined because he was there anyway when I started to plan. Then I figured, he'd get bored, why not pax join too? But then pax would get bored. So I told pineapple to invite wood along. Since we still do care for each other and one day we'll have to settle the awkward tension  anyways. Then circular boy appeared out of nowhere to tell me that he wants to badminton. So coincidentally he wants to bring arrogant along. While arrogant brings his brother along. This is so so rojak. Pineapple's ex, my ex, my old crush, my training buds, and ginger which used to be creepily into me for a short period, then suddenly circular boy which used to be a scout(I hated the scouts).

It's been so long since I met them all. Seaweed's hair grew longer, and he looked stressed. Circular boy dyed his hair but he looked better without. Wood's curly hair is growing back, and we're getting so much better when partnering for mix doubles (which makes me feel great). Pax brought a female state player friend who coincidentally wore the same blue colour T and neon orangish pink shoes as me (we even took a photo lol). Arrogant and his bro didn't fight when they partner each other, which surprised me. Ginger enjoyed. It's so hard to be the host when you're the only one who knows everyone, while they don't know each other well.

I don't regret my decision. Everyone was ok I guess. They started to plan stuff tomorrow, or Saturday, or Sunday. Then I kinda told them how packed my weekend has became, it was on and off plans. Seremban plan suddenly moved backwards which allowed the nabi's wife meetup plan, but she herself was off, then suddenly the 38's plan was on, plus yip man's movie date. <3 Such long story, pineapple and wood said I have so many of these gangs. I have to deny that. It seems alot just because they all planned on the same day! Which made me so... packed. IM EXCITED FOR THE CATCH UP.

After everything, us three actually had lunch together. It wasn't awkward at all (hmph pineapple wanted to let us two dine to prevent being a bulb, luckily we insisted she join) Fortunately ginger didn't follow, or else it would be awkward(we aren't even close!) We talked about everything. The two psychs actually orally planned a perfect birthday celebration for me. (Whut!) They say if it happened, then I'm gonna treat them badminton spendings for a month..... RECORDED. They even tried to make me talk about my future plans. I planned to tell wood by myself, without pineapple there, that made me speechless.

And yep. Wood's motivational talk. His talks always made me feel better. I remember one day after report card day, I was like crap. I told him, wood, I had bad results. Can you make me feel better? And he did. We went to papa johns at tcm, and he talked to me for a long while. I just listened, and get motivated. It was good. But I was worried too. Sometimes, he gives me other opinions, then tells me how stupid I was for making wrong choices. I was worried but I know I need this conversation asap, before I make myself regret. So yep. We two sat there and talked.

I was very shocked to actually get encouraged for this. Tho he strongly promoted inti, and msu. He actually showed concern bout the almost relationship moon and I are reaching. LDR disadvantages. But what else is there to do? I don't wanna go to sunway just to stay near him. I want a good uni. Wood said he would go to Utar too if physiotherapy course was available in kampar campus. It means, I'm not so dumb for choosing it. Then, I actually told him my exam breakdown grades. VERY SURPRISINGLY, he didn't make fun of it. He actually said I'm more like him, as I aced in bio practical, but I screwed in chem practical, which showed how terrible I am towards numbers. (Wow) He's like telling me, I'm not so bad. I might reach what I'm trying to reach. He's like telling me to go on and work hard towards the thing I like, and math will never be easy for me.

He used to think I'd die in the science field. But now? ..... Omg. I have hope. The best part of today wasn't how the tension broke in the courts. It was the way he told me, after all this time, he realized there's no right or wrongs. He used to be manipulative because he thought differently before. But now, even if I take this course in utar. Even if I take it overseas, it's about priorities. If happiness is my goal, then I can go for anything I'm happy with. He chose to work hard like crazy and stress himself to death, and that's not a wrong thing too. It's just... different things we're chasing after. After all this time, we both changed. I think I would be crying if I had this talk with him last year this day. But I listened, and smiled, so calmly, so peacefully. He accepts the fact that I'm going to be with someone else. And it's good how we could still be friends, while me surprising him with unexpected small achievements, proving miracles to him while him motivating me in everything. He even said, his advises are just advises, but I gotta know what I want and go for it.

Hell. I'm gonna work so much harder, to catch up. Life's a war and damn, I gotta stay surviving.