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Wood is injured. He's not sick, he's injured. I'd feel much better if he's just sick. He injured his back, and I didn't even ask how and why, I just assumed it was too aggressive badminton session. I felt bad for assuming, and getting it wrong.

I asked. And he told me. I feel bad for him. Very bad. He said it would probably affect badminton. What fuck. Everything was ok. Why this? Badminton is his love. He loves badminton more than I do, I swear. To destress, to feel better, to have some entertainment, to boost confidence. Why?....

He talked weird. Idk why. He wasn't being unreasonably rude or anything. He wants to fix me. He knows what's holding me back, what kept me negative and depressed af all the time. And he did what he does best: motivate.

It hurts seeing him like that. I mean. He wanted to fix the relationship, but that was impossible. So he wants to fix me, so I can trust again. Love again. Why did he do that? Idiot. You're an idiot.
Don't let fear kept you on the ground. Just because it hurts doesn't meant you have to give up all the chances. Expect the unexpected. He go injured from someone, during some frisbee session. But that won't keep him down.

He told me to give myself a chance.

Moon is dumb for wanting me.
You're dumb for making him wait.

Yeah just because it hurts like fuck doesn't meant I should block all chances. But I really, rather block all the possibilities of shits repeating. I rather miss out all the best moments I could have.

Wood didn't broke me. I broke myself. I made myself like this. He didn't have to do all these things for me tbh. He didn't have to stay. Maybe he's just trying to clear the mess he made. But is that possible?