Omg it's tuesday. I was so tired to blog yesterday, and today I still have to, cuz I have a lot a lot of awesome shits recently. Monday, what exactly happened. The same squad from sunday, we went for valak. Then hokaido sushi, then.. iiao iiao. I got the tickets RM8 each cuz I was there the earliest. The love for pogo is real, and actually... very helpful for the situation. Horizontal line asked me out on monday, but I guess he didn't mean it. So I went out with my sister's squad instead. Actually, I didn't have to be envious. Her squad, how is that different from mine ? I realized in this group, everyone has their craziness. Everyone. Idk about me, but none of them are too quiet or such things. I felt like these people are the ones that survive solo whenever they go. They make friends, and they're never alone. But maybe for me, it's a little different in my uni life. The nun was short, good jump scares. Stand was freaking hilarious. Six peeps, minus salty. I got three tickets here, and another three in a row below, best seats I can get. Stand kept saying "Oh dear", sis has the "I use this to cover my eyes
response. I think I had no response except laughing at them, or just "Wow"s. Sushi was damn good. I thought I could say hi to chicken, but we went to hokkaido instead of zanmai. Idk how working people works. Their generosity. I have to find a job, and be this generous. Bowling was suckish for me. Heh. I didn't know I suck that badly for bowling. I forgot how to bowl. I didn't squat enough and always gotten gutter. Rome was damn good. Rome is good in anything. Holy moaaa. Enguin was so cute. I can't. Ok we then went to "Aboard". They wanted to go meeples but it was closed. Imagine the distance we traveled. I'm so glad to not be the one driving. "The resistance", card game. I really think it's a way we bond. I have no words, except wow how analytical salty and sob was. Rome was particularly more quiet. I was occasionally super smart. Sorry, I mean it. But I was mostly super confused. I wanna reflect some shit. In this fucked up world, bad guys will pretend to be the good guys. The good guys will mistaken good guys as bad guys. Bad guys will cooperate with good guys to cause good guys to blame the good guys. HAHA. It's the game. It's all a game. But somehow, sincerity can change a lot. Even when there are misunderstandings, be sincere, and you will be trusted.
Paintball. I didn't wanna play paintball. I know its messy, its hot, its super messy, and I will be bad at it. But nothing's not worth it, except the shitty aglio olio I ate yesterday. Life is good. Today morning I was so tired. I was almost asking myself, why did I agreed to this? I actually worry that I might not make it on time for the botani meeting. But whatever. Sob has the face like Hmph you don't join, sien. I don't wanna be the boring one who rejects any invitation. So I said, On. I could die otw. Too sleepy. My eyes weren't working. Sis said, the head counts would be me, sis, moss, Rome, enguin, sob, salty, sau, earn1, jkon tbc, hawka tbc. A weird combination. I thought it was nice. Too long not meeting hawka, and he's cute. Younger than me! Then jkon. I like him but sadly they said he injured his foot. The journey to the venue was already disastrous. We picked up salty and earn1, then at the close area we actually saw jkon, and the couple. Good to know, jkon joins. Hawka was supposed to join, but he had stuff on after that, so he left. Ugggh sed. But somehow, our numbers became balanced because of that. We parted teams. Me, sob, Moss, earn1 and salty. I was really damn bad, partly I didn't have HD vision. Stupid eyes. Idk why sob chose me to his team. I can play badminton, but it was fucking obvious how I sucked at all other sports. Bowling, paintball is actually considered a shooting sport. So, that too. Anyway, we all improved throughout the game. Gosh it was tiring. A lot of squatting, and the gun was damn heavy. I thought the bowling was heavy for my bad arm, now this gun. Oh gosh why. However, my first time playing paintball. It sure was fun, but I had fucked up aiming skills. As usual, I sucked at all sports. I tried, anyway. Heh. We played five to six rounds? Idk. Five. I got shot at the arm. It was a nice spot to be shotted. HAHA. I think I'll miss paintball. So I kept some bullets as souvenir. It's indeed a super dirty, messy game. But it's still fun. There are strategies but I definitely never understand anything. At the end of the game, gosh it was a hilarious scene. Jkon was behind some walls, and he probably pushed it, the wall fell. HAHA. I saw my entire team was completely standing and aiming him, including me. Gosh and that surrender hand raising. Too cute. Conclusion, paintball is very tiring. Teamwork is much needed. Snipers are needed, runners/sacrifices are needed. After that it was already quite late. Gosh all the plans, cancelled. I can't catch up the meeting. We didn't feel like going home because it was addicting being with this bunch. So I told the botani guys that I can't make it, and told grandma that I can't make it. Feels so bad, but what chances do I have? What chances does sis have? Almost just none. We went to Metalic behind lavana. It's such a nice place. Made me wanna drink. For that part, moss didn't join. I'm gonna admit that being with this bunch, whatever you miss, you'll miss a lot. Most people went for vacation with fam, all sorts of shits. But this group consists of some Sabah peeps. Its impossible they go back for such short break. So time spent with friends, but actually, it's even much fun. I can imagine ET, Loong, drinking themselves to death in the weekend. It will be fun, but not this fun. Maybe we don't necessarily need alcohol to know someone. Maybe, like this, we already met each other for three days. It's this fun. I always thought, I wish I have friends like this. Wish I have. But I do. It's this bunch.
Salty asked me bout licky. I asked her back about licky. What kind of person is he? She said, he's actually quite a nice guy. Licky thought I was a nice girl. Idk what he saw in me. Maybe it was our conversation after zouk. I talked to him a little. I forgot about what, but I made sure he knew I was taken. I was taken at that time anyway. So we flashed back a little back to that day at the club. Salty said many guys didn't dare to approach me because they thought kon was my bf. Haha. JKon was actually super nice. He knew it was my first time to a club, so he felt that he needs to look after me. ET would do the same if we remained friends. Loong would do the same. It's a gentleman thing. I'm actually always thankful to jkon. I didn't want to be approached, so I didn't. Actually I did. I remember json. The guy came after jkon left. Whatever. Anyway. He asked if I wanted to leave earlier with him. It was so far, and he offered. Idk what jkon thinks, tbh. He has a little different mindset, and smart. The different showed when we played dice. It showed too today when we played killer. Ish idk guys. But he's a very caring friend. Hardly found. We were talking about drinking at my place this fri for my sister's farewell. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be that crazy there. I can't even drink much, cuz I'd talk. Salty and I are similar on that. We express ourselves a lot after drinking. We'd fucking cry. I actually know most of the hardship in her life. She's been tru some crazy amount of shits, and it's not even over yet. We actually have super different shits that happened, except she doesn't know my story. I don't even know, what happened before, are they really that shitty, or is it just me ? Am I making a fuss, do I have the rights to even struggle? Look at her problems, I don't even know anymore. I had a hard time, but totally different kind of hard time. Haih sometimes, Idk. I always think I make a lot of rational decisions or have that sane mindset but I'm still fucking scared of shits happening again. Idk if I'm weak, or that's normal. I know, it's not a comparable thing. A person can cry for a person's death, doesn't mean its shame for a person to cry for a pet being very sick. I know, it's not the same thing, and it doesn't work this way. I'm not the same person from who I was a couple years back. My first changed me a lot. ET changed me a lot. I mean, after "THEM" incident. Is it a good thing? I judge. I assume. I think everyone will play games. We all hide till the end isn't it.
At the end of the day, I told sis one thing. I think it's so nice that earn1 can get herself into convos with salty. They barely know each other. She said, she likes bringing along people who can cope in unfamiliar crowds. People that can live well even if they don't know anyone well. She said, that is why, she started bringing me to her friends. Because that day when I got drunk I told her too much. And so she suddenly know so much about me, she knew I'm one of that kind of people. I can make myself at home with her squad, and she doesn't have to worry about whether I actually enjoy myself. Cuz I will. It's actually sweet. I enjoyed all three days with her squad. I hope the squad doesn't die. I hope they keep playing after she went to scotland. I guess I will continue that, maybe bring in more peeps.
response. I think I had no response except laughing at them, or just "Wow"s. Sushi was damn good. I thought I could say hi to chicken, but we went to hokkaido instead of zanmai. Idk how working people works. Their generosity. I have to find a job, and be this generous. Bowling was suckish for me. Heh. I didn't know I suck that badly for bowling. I forgot how to bowl. I didn't squat enough and always gotten gutter. Rome was damn good. Rome is good in anything. Holy moaaa. Enguin was so cute. I can't. Ok we then went to "Aboard". They wanted to go meeples but it was closed. Imagine the distance we traveled. I'm so glad to not be the one driving. "The resistance", card game. I really think it's a way we bond. I have no words, except wow how analytical salty and sob was. Rome was particularly more quiet. I was occasionally super smart. Sorry, I mean it. But I was mostly super confused. I wanna reflect some shit. In this fucked up world, bad guys will pretend to be the good guys. The good guys will mistaken good guys as bad guys. Bad guys will cooperate with good guys to cause good guys to blame the good guys. HAHA. It's the game. It's all a game. But somehow, sincerity can change a lot. Even when there are misunderstandings, be sincere, and you will be trusted.
Paintball. I didn't wanna play paintball. I know its messy, its hot, its super messy, and I will be bad at it. But nothing's not worth it, except the shitty aglio olio I ate yesterday. Life is good. Today morning I was so tired. I was almost asking myself, why did I agreed to this? I actually worry that I might not make it on time for the botani meeting. But whatever. Sob has the face like Hmph you don't join, sien. I don't wanna be the boring one who rejects any invitation. So I said, On. I could die otw. Too sleepy. My eyes weren't working. Sis said, the head counts would be me, sis, moss, Rome, enguin, sob, salty, sau, earn1, jkon tbc, hawka tbc. A weird combination. I thought it was nice. Too long not meeting hawka, and he's cute. Younger than me! Then jkon. I like him but sadly they said he injured his foot. The journey to the venue was already disastrous. We picked up salty and earn1, then at the close area we actually saw jkon, and the couple. Good to know, jkon joins. Hawka was supposed to join, but he had stuff on after that, so he left. Ugggh sed. But somehow, our numbers became balanced because of that. We parted teams. Me, sob, Moss, earn1 and salty. I was really damn bad, partly I didn't have HD vision. Stupid eyes. Idk why sob chose me to his team. I can play badminton, but it was fucking obvious how I sucked at all other sports. Bowling, paintball is actually considered a shooting sport. So, that too. Anyway, we all improved throughout the game. Gosh it was tiring. A lot of squatting, and the gun was damn heavy. I thought the bowling was heavy for my bad arm, now this gun. Oh gosh why. However, my first time playing paintball. It sure was fun, but I had fucked up aiming skills. As usual, I sucked at all sports. I tried, anyway. Heh. We played five to six rounds? Idk. Five. I got shot at the arm. It was a nice spot to be shotted. HAHA. I think I'll miss paintball. So I kept some bullets as souvenir. It's indeed a super dirty, messy game. But it's still fun. There are strategies but I definitely never understand anything. At the end of the game, gosh it was a hilarious scene. Jkon was behind some walls, and he probably pushed it, the wall fell. HAHA. I saw my entire team was completely standing and aiming him, including me. Gosh and that surrender hand raising. Too cute. Conclusion, paintball is very tiring. Teamwork is much needed. Snipers are needed, runners/sacrifices are needed. After that it was already quite late. Gosh all the plans, cancelled. I can't catch up the meeting. We didn't feel like going home because it was addicting being with this bunch. So I told the botani guys that I can't make it, and told grandma that I can't make it. Feels so bad, but what chances do I have? What chances does sis have? Almost just none. We went to Metalic behind lavana. It's such a nice place. Made me wanna drink. For that part, moss didn't join. I'm gonna admit that being with this bunch, whatever you miss, you'll miss a lot. Most people went for vacation with fam, all sorts of shits. But this group consists of some Sabah peeps. Its impossible they go back for such short break. So time spent with friends, but actually, it's even much fun. I can imagine ET, Loong, drinking themselves to death in the weekend. It will be fun, but not this fun. Maybe we don't necessarily need alcohol to know someone. Maybe, like this, we already met each other for three days. It's this fun. I always thought, I wish I have friends like this. Wish I have. But I do. It's this bunch.
Salty asked me bout licky. I asked her back about licky. What kind of person is he? She said, he's actually quite a nice guy. Licky thought I was a nice girl. Idk what he saw in me. Maybe it was our conversation after zouk. I talked to him a little. I forgot about what, but I made sure he knew I was taken. I was taken at that time anyway. So we flashed back a little back to that day at the club. Salty said many guys didn't dare to approach me because they thought kon was my bf. Haha. JKon was actually super nice. He knew it was my first time to a club, so he felt that he needs to look after me. ET would do the same if we remained friends. Loong would do the same. It's a gentleman thing. I'm actually always thankful to jkon. I didn't want to be approached, so I didn't. Actually I did. I remember json. The guy came after jkon left. Whatever. Anyway. He asked if I wanted to leave earlier with him. It was so far, and he offered. Idk what jkon thinks, tbh. He has a little different mindset, and smart. The different showed when we played dice. It showed too today when we played killer. Ish idk guys. But he's a very caring friend. Hardly found. We were talking about drinking at my place this fri for my sister's farewell. I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be that crazy there. I can't even drink much, cuz I'd talk. Salty and I are similar on that. We express ourselves a lot after drinking. We'd fucking cry. I actually know most of the hardship in her life. She's been tru some crazy amount of shits, and it's not even over yet. We actually have super different shits that happened, except she doesn't know my story. I don't even know, what happened before, are they really that shitty, or is it just me ? Am I making a fuss, do I have the rights to even struggle? Look at her problems, I don't even know anymore. I had a hard time, but totally different kind of hard time. Haih sometimes, Idk. I always think I make a lot of rational decisions or have that sane mindset but I'm still fucking scared of shits happening again. Idk if I'm weak, or that's normal. I know, it's not a comparable thing. A person can cry for a person's death, doesn't mean its shame for a person to cry for a pet being very sick. I know, it's not the same thing, and it doesn't work this way. I'm not the same person from who I was a couple years back. My first changed me a lot. ET changed me a lot. I mean, after "THEM" incident. Is it a good thing? I judge. I assume. I think everyone will play games. We all hide till the end isn't it.
At the end of the day, I told sis one thing. I think it's so nice that earn1 can get herself into convos with salty. They barely know each other. She said, she likes bringing along people who can cope in unfamiliar crowds. People that can live well even if they don't know anyone well. She said, that is why, she started bringing me to her friends. Because that day when I got drunk I told her too much. And so she suddenly know so much about me, she knew I'm one of that kind of people. I can make myself at home with her squad, and she doesn't have to worry about whether I actually enjoy myself. Cuz I will. It's actually sweet. I enjoyed all three days with her squad. I hope the squad doesn't die. I hope they keep playing after she went to scotland. I guess I will continue that, maybe bring in more peeps.
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