So my sister mentioned to sob that I always say "I don't have friends."

I don't have friends here in inti. I have a few. If there are no classes, we forget each other. Do you call that friends? We're basically arranged to be together. No effirts are made. You call that friends?

I don't have friends back in pj, because, they boycotted me. Because, I broke up with ET. The people I regularly hang out with are all gone. The people who used to look into my eyes and give me hugs because they thought I needed them, are all gone.

I said I don't have friends because what's left in my regular life ? No one. There'll only be someone if I make some changes. A camp, a charity event, those all can't change anything. They give more temporary people. You see them for one day, and the next, they forget your names. You remember, but no one remembers.

Sob reacted offensively. "So we're not her friends?"

Yes you are. Yes you are. But know that I've been left somewhere, which is wgy I have the energy to join your group for baddy. I used to play baddy twice on sundays. Training then with loong squad. Now? Training, then setapak squad is substituted. Know that I'm fucking down for quite some time losing loong squad. Know that I had a bunch that I prioritize so much, and they're gone.

I have friends. I have pineapple, arrogant, yip man. Of course they're friends. These are quality ones. True ones. They're never nearby, but they'll be there when I need them, even if they can't be close to me, they'll mentally be with me. But they don't fill up my regular empty spaces.

I'm thankful setapak squad became my squad. So much laughter. I think I can actually get over with loong squad.

Life in inti will be lonely, but I have Bose. At least, I'll have great weekends with great people, regularly. That's more than enough.