I think it feels wrong because I'm going out with guys. Idk if I'm like giving hope or anything to anyone, but I think I definitely made it clear about it to them.
"YH where did you go, what did you do?"
"Went to uptown, just ate spaghetti."
"We didn't even get you to eat spaghetti with us!"
"We shared! So it was cheaper."
"Aaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww"
Wood asked me out. I was thinking, I gotta go, and see if I can make myself treat him like a friend. I think I did it? At least I can stop staring at him when he drives. I can push him away when he crossed the line. I stopped approaching him randomly. It feels weird. Usually he was the one who pulls his arms away. I just tense up, and thought "No, we're just friends." It proved that I really can stop. The amount of concern is the same I guess. We still do, mutually care about each other. It's just it doesn't matter anymore whether he knows it or not. He told me his great achievements. I'm happy for him. After we parted ways, he's free too. He has all his time for himself and his family, without burden. He diagnosed my shoulder problem, and helped as much as he could. Yeah, he cares. I believe him. I guess we can be friends anyway. :D Just honestly wish he stops stressing himself out too much.
I went out with moon too. A few times. Idk if it's right or wrong. It's like giving hope, but.. he's a close friend. I do like to talk about stuff to him like this than in front of a bunch of peeps. But it's so comfortable with him I'm worried.
"I know him tru badminton, he's a very close friend rn, but recently there's an issue."
*tells them about the book, and the phrase."
"I'm worried that he'd like me"
"You're probably more worried that you'd like him back, don't you?"
Shell and stomata knows me well. I do like him, as a close friend, and I don't know what's gonna happen next. One wrong feel can kill a friendship. It can possibly turn everything into nothing, turn smiles into tears. shits, etc. Facts are humans change so fast....
Let's hope it stays this way for years and years, so nobody gets hurt.
"YH where did you go, what did you do?"
"Went to uptown, just ate spaghetti."
"We didn't even get you to eat spaghetti with us!"
"We shared! So it was cheaper."
"Aaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww"
I went out with moon too. A few times. Idk if it's right or wrong. It's like giving hope, but.. he's a close friend. I do like to talk about stuff to him like this than in front of a bunch of peeps. But it's so comfortable with him I'm worried.
"I know him tru badminton, he's a very close friend rn, but recently there's an issue."
*tells them about the book, and the phrase."
"I'm worried that he'd like me"
"You're probably more worried that you'd like him back, don't you?"
Shell and stomata knows me well. I do like him, as a close friend, and I don't know what's gonna happen next. One wrong feel can kill a friendship. It can possibly turn everything into nothing, turn smiles into tears. shits, etc. Facts are humans change so fast....
Let's hope it stays this way for years and years, so nobody gets hurt.
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