Back pain

I'm thinking a lot. Things that used to happen, things that I wished it can still happen, things that I just imagined for no reason.

I used to think losing him would just kill me. Of course, it was bad. However, I survived. Then I thought of putting priority on things, badminton. What if, I lose badminton too?

Wood told me that I probably injured my teres minor. A small muscle at the back. He told me to stop playing. Am I gonna stop playing? ...... Maybe I'll stop hitting hard. I'll just let them be half court. Maybe I'll give up on so so so many shots, or just return more drops.

It just can't be. Badminton's the reason I connect with half the people in my life rn. It's like such a huge part.

I'm feeling so dying. That one-week-diarrhea might be back. Maybe whatever caused it hasn't left. Maybe something's living in me had been inactive for a short while, and now it's active again. I fucking hate diarrhea. Even tho it clearly helped me lose weight, but... I feel like all the awesome food got wasted.

I just wish they all can recover. Let's just hope I get to eat normal. Alright time to wake someone.

Chem was so tiring, but I did absorbed stuff. I like Jaclyn.