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I'm so free rn. The college is quiet, the cafeteria is so empty. It's December, the best month of the year. Good things happen in this month. I got together with him two years ago this month. I cut off contact with him a day ago, same month. They're all good things. We've been through a lot.

Two years can make so much difference. I was lifeless and unmotivated, then I came to life with his existence, then became a psycho that doesn't know how to love myself anymore, into a piece of negative shit that can't possibly trust relationships anymore.

It goes from "I can't possibly live without you" to "You fuck off, leave." It was bad, cuz I still think he's not a bad person. It was different mindset, too different priorities and concerns. You care so much about the future that you're screwing up the present, which would screw up the future you planned. For me, I actually don't give enough shit bout the future, I want to enjoy my freaking 18 year old life and you're just making everything seems so old and dying.

Class please start rn before you cause an overthinking shit life. Now please.