Can I be the one playing people's hearts? Like how my best friend does it. Like how the boys does it. Friends with benefits. Is that thaaaat mature ?

ET was playing around a lot. I asked him to pick me up, so he'd be like "Then you owe me a kiss."

Today, I realized I think he's not kidding. I had moments thinking. Is this right?

Then again, why not ? It's just a kiss. I have kissed people. I've had been kissed. I gotta say that I know how the world goes. I know people have sex everywhere even with people they don't know but I won't ever think it's right. People nowadays can't be serious. They just do things without much thought on it. They don't have feelings anymore.

I need a little bit of that, maybe.

So, why not? Go ahead.
I chose you to tell all the secrets that nobody knew. I chose you to run to when I'm completely broken.
If I had to choose one guy to kiss, that'd be you anyway. So, why not?

Badminton went fine today. Date with yip man went fine today. We asked each other, how's your life? She's pretty happy. I think I am too, right? I am. I found my way back to the squad.. a bit worried about the future, but let's just appreciate the time we have rn. I can pass my test. Doc said as long as you have the will to get A's, you can. He looks like he was satisfied with my will.

Just one thing's not right.
My stomach. It's fucking bloated all day. I barely ate anything. I had one lunch which was a huge suffer if yip man didn't help me on it. Then dinner was like... I didn't really eat. How do I actually live? My stomach aren't feeling right. But I couldn't eat. That's a problem.

Is it the alcohol?
ET said, my tolerance was definitely there. But alcohol withdrawal happened. My head could take it, my stomach couldnt. Maybe that's why. Or maybe I'm just sad.

I'm not sad.