I have never imagined myself coming back to blog.
I have never imagined going back to him, then breaking us up again.
He's sick. Suspect dengue again. It's highly possible because of where he lives.
But up to now I never said anything mind soothing to him.

I mean, it's necessary, right?
Why do you need to show concern when you get hurt from doing that?
Do you still show concern if all you can do is trigger any shitty thing?
If all of this shit happened because of your existence, you should just disappear then.

I did a wrong thing, tho. I maintained the streak.

I'm gonna break it soon.
But I kinda want him to think that I'm fucking fine rn.

I'm pretty sure he's not going to training tomorrow because he's sick.
Can he work ? I don't know, and it's none of my business.
It's none of my business.

I think it's kinda hard.
Trying to put up a show in front of the fam. But I'm doing it much better than three years ago. Much much better.

Just need to numb it. Forget it.