I don't look like someone who recently broke up?

I know. Why should I look miserable? I'm not that miserable.

Honestly to think of it, the worst thing abt my ex and I... the worst parts about the second time we got together, it's just...... So much coldness. Idk how to describe it.

It's like he's dead inside. He doesn't feel that much. So there are many things he couldn't understand. While I'm just here trying to get him to understand, and yeah I guess that's the worst part. When you're holding a dead hand.

I honestly hope he'd break up with me earlier when his heart died. Idk what he's thinking. Sometimes I do wonder what he thinks.

Do you love me just a little so that you don't want to hurt me by breaking us up, and rather show it in your actions to make me break up with you? Such a waste of time, energy. The most selfish thing someone can do: take that kind of advantage.

Yes I do think of him a little. Little by little. But thinking of him doesn't hurt or makes me smile. It doesn't do anything. It just gives me confusion. Gives me headaches.

What is wrong with him??

I recently saw this video. It says most live quotes are bullshit. It's fucking hilarious. It says, example for quotes like "He will never leave you if he truly loves you." Bullshit. Haha. Bullshit!

Just because you know they love you, you take advantage of them. You be your stubborn shitty self, you refuse to change, refuse to communicate. At the end, let's see who'd stay. Some idiot would.

I have a feeling everyone's born a fantasy idiot. Everyone would experience being an idiot, once. Then, the idiot within them dies. They reborn with loads of senses. They finally know how to walk away from toxic even if it's so fucking addicting.

Self torture. It's something. Some people get addicted to it. I'd say, idiots.